1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:06,840 --> 00:00:08,466 You're dancing, aren't you? 3 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 4 00:00:08,550 --> 00:00:09,509 Smile. 5 00:00:12,637 --> 00:00:14,806 She's dancing! 6 00:00:15,473 --> 00:00:16,474 Are you dancing? 7 00:00:17,392 --> 00:00:18,309 Larissa! 8 00:00:22,230 --> 00:00:23,815 Do you see that girl in pink, 9 00:00:23,898 --> 00:00:26,026 standing in the corner at a birthday party? 10 00:00:26,109 --> 00:00:27,777 Her name is Larissa. 11 00:00:28,528 --> 00:00:30,655 Here, in April of '94, 12 00:00:31,156 --> 00:00:34,117 when everyone on our street was talking about the World Cup, 13 00:00:34,743 --> 00:00:37,245 she was celebrating her first year of life. 14 00:00:37,746 --> 00:00:38,913 When she was born, 15 00:00:39,831 --> 00:00:41,666 on March 30th of the previous year, 16 00:00:42,459 --> 00:00:44,044 nobody knew that the Larissa, 17 00:00:44,669 --> 00:00:47,255 dancing in front of the speakers, 18 00:00:48,089 --> 00:00:52,010 would become Anitta, the biggest pop star in Brazil's history. 19 00:00:52,969 --> 00:00:55,597 Anitta, I love you! 20 00:00:58,516 --> 00:01:00,185 You really couldn't tell. 21 00:01:01,269 --> 00:01:02,687 After all, at that time, 22 00:01:03,188 --> 00:01:05,440 Larissa was just a girl from Honório Gurgel. 23 00:01:11,112 --> 00:01:12,697 A place far different 24 00:01:12,781 --> 00:01:15,658 from the Rio of Bossa Nova and "The Girl from Ipanema", 25 00:01:17,911 --> 00:01:20,997 that would become known to the world precisely because of her. 26 00:01:23,541 --> 00:01:27,128 She would take funk and the favela to the world's most important venues. 27 00:01:29,339 --> 00:01:32,884 Now, if you pay a little more attention… 28 00:01:35,804 --> 00:01:38,765 you'll see that this girl right here, the girl from Honório, 29 00:01:40,892 --> 00:01:42,310 was already different. 30 00:01:44,104 --> 00:01:46,606 It was a children's party, full of people, 31 00:01:47,524 --> 00:01:48,900 but she was by herself. 32 00:01:49,859 --> 00:01:53,530 As if she was dancing, but at the same time, seeing everything from the outside. 33 00:01:54,155 --> 00:01:55,281 Split in two. 34 00:01:57,242 --> 00:02:00,161 She didn't know Brazil would end up winning that World Cup, 35 00:02:00,245 --> 00:02:02,831 nor that she would end up actually splitting in two, 36 00:02:04,666 --> 00:02:06,793 and eventually that giant Anitta, 37 00:02:07,293 --> 00:02:10,797 at some point, would come to miss being in the corners of such parties. 38 00:02:11,673 --> 00:02:14,384 Both the corners of parties and the corners of herself. 39 00:02:15,635 --> 00:02:21,224 Because all that would remain of that Little Red Riding Hood-themed party 40 00:02:21,307 --> 00:02:22,892 was the power of the speakers. 41 00:02:33,236 --> 00:02:35,196 Anitta is number one… 42 00:02:35,697 --> 00:02:40,076 The singer has made history in the world's most important music festival… 43 00:02:41,202 --> 00:02:43,705 When I started, you couldn't play funk on the radio. 44 00:02:43,788 --> 00:02:46,332 I had to change my songs so they would sound like pop. 45 00:02:55,967 --> 00:02:58,636 Anitta has won yet another award. 46 00:02:58,720 --> 00:03:01,389 She's on an intense tour. She's been to many cities, 47 00:03:01,472 --> 00:03:02,724 done so many concerts. 48 00:03:02,807 --> 00:03:05,018 From the outskirts of Rio to the world… 49 00:03:21,201 --> 00:03:25,079 When Larissa called me and invited me to be a part of this film, 50 00:03:25,163 --> 00:03:27,081 I admit I felt kind of lost. 51 00:03:27,582 --> 00:03:29,792 I didn't quite understand what was going on. 52 00:03:32,170 --> 00:03:35,590 I mean, she's Anitta now, right? 53 00:03:35,673 --> 00:03:37,800 She can get whoever she wants to film her. 54 00:03:38,509 --> 00:03:39,510 Why me? 55 00:03:41,095 --> 00:03:44,557 But when she explained it, I think I understood why. 56 00:03:46,476 --> 00:03:48,686 You'll be with me filming the whole thing. 57 00:03:50,897 --> 00:03:55,401 When Anitta is working, as well as Larissa in private, too. 58 00:03:57,195 --> 00:03:58,196 It's Anitta! 59 00:03:59,697 --> 00:04:01,115 Anyone can film… 60 00:04:02,242 --> 00:04:04,619 Actually, I think everybody has done it. 61 00:04:05,203 --> 00:04:06,371 But Larissa… 62 00:04:06,871 --> 00:04:08,122 not Larissa. 63 00:04:09,499 --> 00:04:12,001 Because I need someone very discreet. 64 00:04:15,338 --> 00:04:18,841 Larissa is a very well-kept secret that nearly no one has access to, 65 00:04:19,842 --> 00:04:22,095 and only appears for those she really trusts, 66 00:04:22,178 --> 00:04:25,306 those who have been with her since the beginning. 67 00:04:25,390 --> 00:04:28,393 We can start whenever you want as far as I'm concerned. 68 00:04:28,476 --> 00:04:30,603 Whenever you want, I'll be getting started. 69 00:04:32,063 --> 00:04:33,189 Actually, 70 00:04:33,273 --> 00:04:36,734 I think I'm here because this confusion between Larissa and Anitta, 71 00:04:37,902 --> 00:04:39,195 creature and creator, 72 00:04:40,321 --> 00:04:42,532 was still not sorted out in her head. 73 00:04:57,046 --> 00:05:01,384 The work of the star from Honório Gurgel has been acknowledged, 74 00:05:01,467 --> 00:05:05,722 as she received the award for best Latin American Music Video at the VMAs, 75 00:05:05,805 --> 00:05:08,641 the award show hosted by American MTV. 76 00:05:11,185 --> 00:05:13,563 I think she understood that my perspective 77 00:05:13,646 --> 00:05:17,525 and the fact that we come from the same place could be useful in this process. 78 00:06:01,194 --> 00:06:03,571 It made sense that she called me to film her. 79 00:06:04,364 --> 00:06:08,743 But I sort of panicked right before we began. Kind of obvious, right? 80 00:06:09,827 --> 00:06:12,914 After all, Larissa, the first girl I ever had a crush on, 81 00:06:13,706 --> 00:06:15,333 was now queen of the world. 82 00:06:16,167 --> 00:06:17,710 And she might not know, 83 00:06:17,794 --> 00:06:21,297 but also queen of the most poorly resolved love of my life. 84 00:06:26,302 --> 00:06:28,054 That message I sent and deleted… 85 00:06:30,681 --> 00:06:33,184 I was asking if you were going to sleep over there. 86 00:06:35,853 --> 00:06:38,356 To ask you if you wanted to come over here. 87 00:06:40,733 --> 00:06:44,112 Because I write something like that, and then I'm like, "thank you!" 88 00:06:49,742 --> 00:06:52,954 My God, that's the last time I'll ever say something cute to you. 89 00:06:57,625 --> 00:07:00,002 Oh no, here I go again, annoying you. 90 00:07:00,086 --> 00:07:03,339 I was like, "Fuck it. I'll just send it. I don't care." 91 00:07:03,923 --> 00:07:06,467 I don't care if you feel smothered. Fuck it. 92 00:07:08,344 --> 00:07:12,974 Hi. I'm angry at you. But I can't be, can I? Stop worrying. 93 00:07:15,852 --> 00:07:17,019 Because I love you. 94 00:07:56,476 --> 00:07:58,227 -Is he going to film us? -We… yes. 95 00:07:58,311 --> 00:08:01,105 Hold it right here. This is how you focus, here. 96 00:08:43,481 --> 00:08:44,315 Oh my God. 97 00:10:32,214 --> 00:10:36,510 I was filming her for the first time, from the back of the stage. 98 00:10:37,178 --> 00:10:39,388 That is so different from what I was used to. 99 00:10:42,391 --> 00:10:44,477 My closeness was always to Larissa. 100 00:10:47,730 --> 00:10:48,689 Come on in. 101 00:10:49,273 --> 00:10:50,191 Oh, my bad. 102 00:10:50,858 --> 00:10:52,985 I realize I haven't introduced myself. 103 00:10:53,069 --> 00:10:55,738 My name is Pedro and I'm also from Honório. 104 00:10:59,575 --> 00:11:01,911 And little by little, I started understanding 105 00:11:01,994 --> 00:11:05,164 when Larissa leaves the stage and Anitta enters the scene. 106 00:11:05,247 --> 00:11:06,082 Like this. 107 00:11:10,086 --> 00:11:10,920 I'm back. 108 00:11:11,587 --> 00:11:13,255 Whether you want it or not. 109 00:11:25,476 --> 00:11:27,853 When she invited me to be in this movie, 110 00:11:27,937 --> 00:11:31,023 I think she wanted a witness of who she was before Anitta. 111 00:11:32,983 --> 00:11:35,736 I said yes 'cause I realized she wanted to talk about that, 112 00:11:35,820 --> 00:11:37,446 about that crazy split. 113 00:11:37,530 --> 00:11:40,074 And I knew that, having known her back then, 114 00:11:40,157 --> 00:11:43,119 I was one of the few people who could explain that. 115 00:11:44,662 --> 00:11:48,374 I know the love I feel for her has nothing to do with this film. 116 00:11:49,417 --> 00:11:50,418 But I thought, 117 00:11:51,585 --> 00:11:53,504 maybe I'll have the courage this time… 118 00:11:54,463 --> 00:11:57,299 to tell her everything I've been feeling all these years, 119 00:11:57,800 --> 00:11:59,009 watching her from afar. 120 00:12:00,052 --> 00:12:02,304 Making a movie brings people closer, you know? 121 00:12:03,514 --> 00:12:05,433 I'm glad you're back. 122 00:12:05,516 --> 00:12:07,059 Me too. I'm glad I'm back. 123 00:12:12,231 --> 00:12:13,983 Is there still anything between us? 124 00:12:16,652 --> 00:12:20,072 Will she think this totally regular guy is interesting, 125 00:12:20,156 --> 00:12:22,616 having hung out with all those mega-famous people? 126 00:12:23,659 --> 00:12:28,038 Will I be able to film her professionally, without getting things mixed up? 127 00:12:28,539 --> 00:12:31,125 Do you feel better being together? 128 00:12:31,208 --> 00:12:32,793 I guess. Why? 129 00:12:34,044 --> 00:12:34,920 Nothing. 130 00:12:35,546 --> 00:12:36,589 Or worse-- 131 00:12:36,672 --> 00:12:37,631 That's great. 132 00:12:37,715 --> 00:12:38,966 Is she still herself? 133 00:12:40,009 --> 00:12:41,844 Will I be able to be myself? 134 00:12:42,887 --> 00:12:44,889 Of course I didn't tell her any of that, 135 00:12:45,389 --> 00:12:49,101 but it was what I was thinking when we walked into this hotel room. 136 00:12:50,978 --> 00:12:51,937 Should I put it on? 137 00:12:52,021 --> 00:12:56,484 I remember she liked to say my name, because it was her grandfather's name.5 138 00:12:56,567 --> 00:12:57,943 He was also a musician. 139 00:13:00,154 --> 00:13:03,574 And he was the person who introduced her to the world of music. 140 00:13:05,451 --> 00:13:09,246 Pedro! Pedro! Where's Pedro? Pedro! Pedro! Pedro! 141 00:13:11,081 --> 00:13:13,167 It's like I've been away for a long time. 142 00:13:13,250 --> 00:13:15,085 You were away for a long time! 143 00:13:15,169 --> 00:13:17,296 For me, it never went away. 144 00:13:18,547 --> 00:13:23,093 Me, Anitta, Larissa, and my camera, you know? 145 00:13:23,969 --> 00:13:25,971 A camera that came here to see a person, 146 00:13:26,639 --> 00:13:28,516 but suddenly found itself before two. 147 00:13:30,601 --> 00:13:32,394 Two amazing women, 148 00:13:33,395 --> 00:13:35,606 who unbelievably have opened this door to me 149 00:13:36,524 --> 00:13:37,608 and now to you. 150 00:13:39,735 --> 00:13:40,903 You're not dating anyone? 151 00:13:40,986 --> 00:13:43,030 No. You think I'm dating someone? 152 00:13:43,113 --> 00:13:44,323 -I do. -Why? 153 00:13:45,074 --> 00:13:46,158 I just think you are. 154 00:13:46,909 --> 00:13:49,662 I think you are, and you're telling me not 'cause… 155 00:13:49,745 --> 00:13:51,163 it's all in the name of art. 156 00:13:52,373 --> 00:13:54,124 I saw your girlfriend on Instagram. 157 00:13:54,208 --> 00:13:55,918 Did you? Who? 158 00:13:56,001 --> 00:13:57,962 -The one who's there. -Who? 159 00:13:58,796 --> 00:14:00,130 The one on your Instagram. 160 00:14:00,214 --> 00:14:01,465 -The photo? -Mm-hmm. 161 00:14:02,716 --> 00:14:04,134 We broke up about… 162 00:14:06,637 --> 00:14:07,596 four months ago. 163 00:14:08,430 --> 00:14:09,640 So you're single? 164 00:14:11,684 --> 00:14:13,936 -I'm single. Unfortunately. -For real? 165 00:14:14,478 --> 00:14:15,396 For real. 166 00:14:18,399 --> 00:14:19,900 Why would I lie about that? 167 00:14:20,609 --> 00:14:21,527 I don't know. 168 00:14:23,779 --> 00:14:25,030 I mean, I do know. 169 00:14:26,365 --> 00:14:29,118 You know what pisses me off? When you tell stories 170 00:14:29,994 --> 00:14:33,289 about when we were kids, you insist on saying you were ugly. 171 00:14:33,372 --> 00:14:35,124 I was horrendous! 172 00:14:35,207 --> 00:14:36,208 Come on, Larissa. 173 00:14:36,709 --> 00:14:38,836 I was really horrendous. In class, people-- 174 00:14:38,919 --> 00:14:40,462 Did your friends say that? 175 00:14:40,546 --> 00:14:42,798 At the time, when I walked into the classroom, 176 00:14:43,549 --> 00:14:46,594 people would pretend they were dying, 'cause of how big my nose was. 177 00:14:46,677 --> 00:14:47,887 -I swear to god. -What?! 178 00:14:47,970 --> 00:14:51,181 People would pretend they were suffocating to death. 179 00:14:52,182 --> 00:14:53,642 What kind of classroom was that? 180 00:14:53,726 --> 00:14:58,355 Back then, my father was kind of going through a shitty time with his business. 181 00:14:58,439 --> 00:15:02,902 So we had to go to… 182 00:15:04,987 --> 00:15:06,614 go to public school. 183 00:15:06,697 --> 00:15:09,283 I loved to study. I was the biggest nerd. 184 00:15:09,366 --> 00:15:13,370 I was scared of going to public school. I was like, fuck, fuck, fuck. 185 00:15:14,121 --> 00:15:17,708 And then there was this pageant. I don't believe in coincidences, okay? 186 00:15:17,791 --> 00:15:20,961 I think it all happened just so I could have this story to tell. 187 00:15:21,503 --> 00:15:24,089 There was this "Spring Girl" pageant. 188 00:15:24,173 --> 00:15:27,176 And the prize was a scholarship. 189 00:15:27,885 --> 00:15:29,470 So I signed up for the pageant. 190 00:15:29,553 --> 00:15:33,390 And why do I know I'm ugly? Because I became the-- Because I was ugly. 191 00:15:33,474 --> 00:15:36,602 Because I became the laughingstock of the school at that time. 192 00:15:36,685 --> 00:15:38,354 And the pageant had a theme, 193 00:15:38,854 --> 00:15:40,648 recycling. 194 00:15:41,649 --> 00:15:44,693 I got home and I said, "Mom, I signed up for this pageant 195 00:15:44,777 --> 00:15:47,905 and I have to win because the prize is a scholarship." 196 00:15:48,948 --> 00:15:52,368 So, my mom and I started making costumes out of coffee cups. 197 00:15:53,994 --> 00:15:58,540 And when we got there, the girls were all dolled up. 198 00:16:00,209 --> 00:16:01,794 Look at hers! 199 00:16:01,877 --> 00:16:03,420 It's a Paco Rabanne. 200 00:16:03,504 --> 00:16:04,505 Now look at mine! 201 00:16:05,589 --> 00:16:10,302 So my mom said, "Larissa, come on, let's get out of here." 202 00:16:11,053 --> 00:16:13,430 I said, "Mom, what do you mean?" 203 00:16:14,098 --> 00:16:15,557 And she said, "No, no." 204 00:16:16,183 --> 00:16:19,937 "Can't you see these people, they've hired God knows who, 205 00:16:20,020 --> 00:16:23,023 and we made your costume ourselves, you and I?" 206 00:16:23,649 --> 00:16:29,279 I told her, "Mom, it doesn't matter. They don't have what I have." 207 00:16:30,781 --> 00:16:34,034 -She asked, "What do you have?" -And I said, "Charisma." 208 00:16:34,118 --> 00:16:35,661 I entered the stage like this. 209 00:16:38,497 --> 00:16:39,331 Like this. 210 00:16:48,090 --> 00:16:49,550 Like that. Like that! 211 00:16:50,217 --> 00:16:52,594 -I have pictures. -I can picture you doing that. 212 00:16:52,678 --> 00:16:53,679 -No-- -Everything. 213 00:16:53,762 --> 00:16:55,139 I have pictures. 214 00:16:55,222 --> 00:16:58,600 So when it was already like, 7pm, my mom started to… 215 00:16:58,684 --> 00:16:59,852 She was leaving. 216 00:16:59,935 --> 00:17:01,603 She was already at the door. 217 00:17:02,730 --> 00:17:05,232 And the lady announced, "And the winner is… 218 00:17:05,315 --> 00:17:07,026 Larissa de Macedo Machado!" 219 00:17:07,109 --> 00:17:11,363 And I just looked at my aunt and said, "Didn't I say I was going to win?" 220 00:17:11,905 --> 00:17:14,825 And I strutted across the stage, 221 00:17:14,908 --> 00:17:18,328 grabbed my sash, my flowers, and my scholarship. 222 00:17:18,412 --> 00:17:19,872 I got to study for free. 223 00:17:29,590 --> 00:17:33,302 PROUD DUCKLING KINDERGARTEN RIO, DECEMBER 14TH, 1998. 224 00:17:56,075 --> 00:17:59,995 Larissa, ever since she was a toddler, she had so much personality, 225 00:18:00,079 --> 00:18:01,455 as she still does. 226 00:18:01,538 --> 00:18:05,250 Even as a little child, everything had to be the way she wanted, 227 00:18:05,334 --> 00:18:07,836 there was no getting around that. 228 00:18:07,920 --> 00:18:09,338 She's always been like that. 229 00:18:09,421 --> 00:18:12,841 She'd come up with these games, like, "Let's be singers, 230 00:18:12,925 --> 00:18:15,928 let's play this, let's play theater." 231 00:18:16,011 --> 00:18:20,057 She was the boss, she managed it all, ever since she was little. 232 00:18:21,809 --> 00:18:22,643 There! 233 00:18:26,271 --> 00:18:27,481 Give me that! 234 00:18:33,612 --> 00:18:36,657 We've always been very close. 235 00:18:36,740 --> 00:18:39,618 If there was a birthday party, everyone would be there. 236 00:18:42,538 --> 00:18:44,665 Something she always says. She says, 237 00:18:44,748 --> 00:18:48,085 "We've always been happy, haven't we? With or without money." 238 00:18:48,168 --> 00:18:50,087 And I say, "That's right." 239 00:18:52,631 --> 00:18:56,468 For those who come from the place that we do, family is everything. 240 00:18:56,552 --> 00:18:57,553 It's the foundation. 241 00:18:58,887 --> 00:19:00,722 I've always valued mine a lot. 242 00:19:00,806 --> 00:19:03,976 But I've never seen anything like the way Larissa does. 243 00:19:05,561 --> 00:19:07,688 Hi Dad, good morning. How are you? 244 00:19:09,273 --> 00:19:12,860 Dad, I dreamt you were in bed crying with back pain. 245 00:19:16,113 --> 00:19:17,072 Are you okay? 246 00:19:41,847 --> 00:19:44,057 -Mom! -Dad! 247 00:20:30,354 --> 00:20:32,105 You're still crying? 248 00:20:33,273 --> 00:20:34,942 Oh my God. 249 00:20:37,069 --> 00:20:39,238 My brother knows how I think, everything I want. 250 00:20:39,321 --> 00:20:41,448 It's ridiculous. I love and admire him so much. 251 00:20:41,531 --> 00:20:43,659 I can't imagine my life without him. 252 00:20:44,660 --> 00:20:46,912 He is the love of my life. My greatest love. 253 00:20:46,995 --> 00:20:48,038 We work together. 254 00:20:48,705 --> 00:20:49,998 I'm going with you tomorrow. 255 00:20:50,082 --> 00:20:52,626 I couldn't see this in him, and he couldn't see it in me. 256 00:20:52,709 --> 00:20:56,088 But now I can feel how much he loves me, and I think he does too. 257 00:20:56,171 --> 00:20:57,547 He's, like, everything. 258 00:21:01,426 --> 00:21:03,387 Oh Dad, I love you so much. 259 00:21:03,470 --> 00:21:06,848 I love being with you. I love it, I love it. I'm so happy. 260 00:21:07,599 --> 00:21:10,227 When I'm by your side, my life improves, my-- 261 00:21:10,310 --> 00:21:12,104 A rainbow appears. 262 00:21:12,187 --> 00:21:13,939 You're wonderful. I love you. 263 00:21:18,568 --> 00:21:19,987 Me too, darling. 264 00:21:20,070 --> 00:21:23,573 I'm very happy when I'm by your side. Very happy, okay? 265 00:21:24,616 --> 00:21:27,244 I love you a lot too, okay? 266 00:21:28,120 --> 00:21:29,997 I'm happy that you're happy. 267 00:21:34,334 --> 00:21:36,920 Larissa is also very close to her aunts. 268 00:21:37,546 --> 00:21:38,839 I've seen that in Honório, 269 00:21:39,339 --> 00:21:43,552 and I see it on Instagram, for example, when she travels and brings everyone. 270 00:21:44,386 --> 00:21:46,096 -Portuguese. -Portuguese? 271 00:21:46,763 --> 00:21:49,057 I want my family and my friends to come on stage. 272 00:21:49,141 --> 00:21:52,394 And then my family comes, you've got to get the Brazilian flag. 273 00:21:52,477 --> 00:21:55,063 -Super. -My friends, and then they all dance… 274 00:21:56,815 --> 00:21:59,443 Or when she puts her entire family on stage. 275 00:21:59,943 --> 00:22:01,903 My family is here with me. 276 00:22:01,987 --> 00:22:05,532 This is one of the best days in my life. Thank you, Portugal! 277 00:22:13,040 --> 00:22:17,127 To this day, I still think about how many stories Larissa has to tell. 278 00:22:17,836 --> 00:22:19,004 What was it again? 279 00:22:20,213 --> 00:22:24,259 When I was a child, at the mall, those Disney things, Minnie, 280 00:22:24,343 --> 00:22:26,261 Mickey, Pluto. 281 00:22:26,345 --> 00:22:28,513 -Disney. -But there was a line for each of them. 282 00:22:28,597 --> 00:22:29,431 Yeah. 283 00:22:29,514 --> 00:22:31,725 And we couldn't stand in the line for Minnie, 284 00:22:31,808 --> 00:22:33,643 because it was too long. 285 00:22:33,727 --> 00:22:37,147 So we went to the shortest line, which was for Pluto, for… 286 00:22:37,230 --> 00:22:40,734 But there she stayed, looking, but she never said, like, 287 00:22:40,817 --> 00:22:43,487 "I don't want this." She'd stay in her head and look at us, 288 00:22:43,570 --> 00:22:46,740 and we'd go, "Minnie's is too long." And she was like this. 289 00:22:47,407 --> 00:22:49,868 Suddenly, where was Larissa? 290 00:22:49,951 --> 00:22:53,914 There was such a big crowd, and we were like, "Where's Larissa?" 291 00:22:53,997 --> 00:22:57,042 I started crying right away. I said, "They kidnapped her." 292 00:22:57,125 --> 00:23:00,587 She was tiny. "Calm down." And I-- I get too nervous. That's who I am. 293 00:23:01,088 --> 00:23:03,340 And she was just gone. Where was Larissa? 294 00:23:03,840 --> 00:23:04,841 Standing in line. 295 00:23:05,425 --> 00:23:10,680 And what frightened us, was that she didn't throw a tantrum, 296 00:23:10,764 --> 00:23:12,682 nor did she say, "I want to go there." 297 00:23:12,766 --> 00:23:16,561 No, she just went. In her mind, she was like, "Hey, that's cool." 298 00:23:16,645 --> 00:23:17,771 And she just went. 299 00:23:18,897 --> 00:23:21,316 Her aunts raised her together with her mother, 300 00:23:21,400 --> 00:23:23,527 because the three of them worked together. 301 00:23:24,111 --> 00:23:27,406 Miriam, Márcia, and Marília. 302 00:23:28,698 --> 00:23:30,492 And since Miriam and Mauro separated 303 00:23:30,575 --> 00:23:32,994 when Larissa was under two, and Renan was four, 304 00:23:33,078 --> 00:23:35,122 the aunts really came to her rescue. 305 00:23:35,914 --> 00:23:37,874 There's even this matter with Larissa. 306 00:23:38,458 --> 00:23:41,878 She thinks since her brother was older when their parents separated, 307 00:23:41,962 --> 00:23:46,550 and he seemed to be in more pain than her, she felt a bit abandoned. 308 00:23:47,759 --> 00:23:50,470 You know those people who don't seem to need attention, 309 00:23:50,971 --> 00:23:53,223 might be the ones who need attention the most? 310 00:23:53,974 --> 00:23:57,018 And when they don't get it, they get tougher and tougher? 311 00:23:57,978 --> 00:23:59,521 I think that's the case. 312 00:23:59,604 --> 00:24:00,772 Larissa is fragile, 313 00:24:01,523 --> 00:24:02,482 and sensitive, 314 00:24:03,150 --> 00:24:04,818 while Anitta is super tough. 315 00:24:05,360 --> 00:24:06,903 It's even scary sometimes. 316 00:24:07,404 --> 00:24:10,115 But I think both are very romantic deep down, 317 00:24:10,198 --> 00:24:12,325 even if Larissa makes that more evident 318 00:24:12,409 --> 00:24:15,203 while Anitta seems to be the exact opposite. 319 00:24:16,121 --> 00:24:19,416 And who said you can't be everything at once? 320 00:24:20,667 --> 00:24:24,129 In any case, for someone who spent their whole childhood feeling invisible, 321 00:24:24,212 --> 00:24:25,714 like she always says, 322 00:24:25,797 --> 00:24:27,674 I don't know, 323 00:24:27,757 --> 00:24:32,554 I think it's easier to choose only one version of yourself 324 00:24:32,637 --> 00:24:36,099 and later realize that both sides can… 325 00:24:36,183 --> 00:24:37,350 How can I say this? 326 00:24:38,143 --> 00:24:39,186 Coexist. 327 00:24:44,024 --> 00:24:47,694 Like, throughout my childhood, I was invisible in my house. 328 00:24:49,696 --> 00:24:52,532 My mom didn't really accept who I was. 329 00:24:54,451 --> 00:24:56,453 She thought I should be less. 330 00:24:56,953 --> 00:24:58,121 Less? 331 00:24:58,205 --> 00:25:03,043 Stand out less, speak less, 332 00:25:03,126 --> 00:25:06,254 be less flashy, less extravagant, less… 333 00:25:06,963 --> 00:25:10,133 She always said that I should be just like my brother. 334 00:25:12,969 --> 00:25:16,556 And my brother was always the calmer one, 335 00:25:17,474 --> 00:25:18,558 more like her. 336 00:25:18,642 --> 00:25:19,851 And I was more… 337 00:25:24,481 --> 00:25:26,274 And I didn't want to not be… 338 00:25:26,858 --> 00:25:27,901 I wanted to be… 339 00:25:32,781 --> 00:25:34,282 If it weren't for my career, 340 00:25:34,366 --> 00:25:37,452 if it weren't for what I have built as Anitta, 341 00:25:37,536 --> 00:25:39,204 the things I have… 342 00:25:41,831 --> 00:25:44,751 all the times I made… 343 00:25:46,586 --> 00:25:48,755 history in my home country, in… 344 00:25:49,673 --> 00:25:51,091 in the whole damn thing, 345 00:25:52,592 --> 00:25:54,678 it would be like I didn't have any value. 346 00:25:54,761 --> 00:25:57,556 As if there were no reason for anyone to look at me. 347 00:25:58,181 --> 00:26:03,562 Because if I hadn't done all that and become Anitta… 348 00:26:06,940 --> 00:26:10,193 it wouldn't… it would be like I'm irrelevant, you know? 349 00:26:10,277 --> 00:26:12,904 Because that's the way it was for my whole childhood. 350 00:26:15,073 --> 00:26:16,449 Hey Mom, how are you? 351 00:26:16,533 --> 00:26:17,742 Remember Pedro? 352 00:26:18,368 --> 00:26:22,664 My childhood friend from Honório? Blond, blue eyes, I kissed him? 353 00:26:22,747 --> 00:26:25,584 He's here doing some filming with me. 354 00:26:25,667 --> 00:26:28,378 I love you very much. Oh, the video was marvelous. 355 00:26:28,878 --> 00:26:29,921 It was so cool. 356 00:26:30,005 --> 00:26:34,843 I'm going back to Miami. I love you so much. Miss you. 357 00:26:46,479 --> 00:26:50,358 Do you think birds can fly as far and as high as they want? 358 00:26:50,442 --> 00:26:52,944 Is there a cap for how high a bird can fly? 359 00:26:53,445 --> 00:26:54,279 There is. 360 00:26:55,030 --> 00:26:55,947 What is it? 361 00:27:00,994 --> 00:27:03,580 Anitta has set a new record 362 00:27:03,663 --> 00:27:08,043 with her hit single "Envolver," reaching Top 1 Global on Spotify. 363 00:27:18,720 --> 00:27:20,764 -Where's my mom? -She's down there. 364 00:27:24,309 --> 00:27:26,353 -Can you believe that? -Mom! 365 00:27:28,772 --> 00:27:32,067 Can you believe it? Neither can I. I still can't. 366 00:27:40,200 --> 00:27:41,201 -I said-- -Dad! 367 00:27:47,457 --> 00:27:48,708 My God! 368 00:27:50,502 --> 00:27:52,295 -Very good. -My God! 369 00:27:53,380 --> 00:27:54,798 -My God! -Yeah. 370 00:27:55,632 --> 00:27:57,884 -That's right, honey. -Dad… 371 00:28:03,431 --> 00:28:04,557 It's unreal. 372 00:28:05,141 --> 00:28:07,060 -That's right. -It's unreal. 373 00:28:08,853 --> 00:28:10,397 It's unbelievable. 374 00:28:11,314 --> 00:28:13,108 No, it was playing, and then-- 375 00:28:53,356 --> 00:28:54,816 Awesome! 376 00:28:55,734 --> 00:28:58,611 -Beautiful! -Yeah, it is. 377 00:28:58,695 --> 00:29:02,323 -Whoa. -That's awesome! 378 00:30:26,074 --> 00:30:28,868 -Hey, are we going to have those holes? -No, no. 379 00:30:29,619 --> 00:30:32,413 Because since it's a square, we can't move it like this. 380 00:30:32,497 --> 00:30:35,375 No, come here. Come here. I'll show you how it works. 381 00:31:35,351 --> 00:31:37,812 There are cases of artists who have changed their names 382 00:31:37,896 --> 00:31:40,690 and created, I don't know, other artistic personae. 383 00:31:41,566 --> 00:31:45,194 But what usually happens is that one of those sides eventually 384 00:31:45,278 --> 00:31:46,738 ceases to exist. 385 00:31:46,821 --> 00:31:48,031 Not with her. 386 00:32:32,575 --> 00:32:36,120 Seeing up close the way Larissa and Anitta exist, together… 387 00:32:40,041 --> 00:32:43,336 We were in California and in Honório at the same time. 388 00:32:51,469 --> 00:32:54,472 The two of them in the world's most important music festival. 389 00:33:19,622 --> 00:33:23,501 -It's your first time in Coachella, right? -Yeah, I'm like… 390 00:33:24,919 --> 00:33:26,254 Scared shitless. 391 00:33:26,337 --> 00:33:28,631 -You're scared shitless? -I'm afraid. 392 00:33:31,009 --> 00:33:32,093 At this moment, 393 00:33:33,594 --> 00:33:34,887 I'm the one who's scared. 394 00:33:36,180 --> 00:33:41,144 Scared of giving myself to a woman who may be more used to the big time 395 00:33:41,227 --> 00:33:42,895 than to the simple life. 396 00:33:51,612 --> 00:33:55,742 When you're a woman in show business… 397 00:33:57,660 --> 00:33:59,370 Come on, help me put this on. 398 00:34:00,038 --> 00:34:03,249 If you don't have a showbiz man, 399 00:34:03,332 --> 00:34:05,835 things are a little more difficult for you. 400 00:34:08,379 --> 00:34:10,089 It's also business. 401 00:34:11,299 --> 00:34:15,553 Who are you going to form a couple with? Where will you show up together? 402 00:34:16,220 --> 00:34:17,555 Did you get my skates? 403 00:34:20,099 --> 00:34:22,560 Aren't you going to be cold wearing those clothes? 404 00:34:24,228 --> 00:34:28,232 And I understood that even though I wanted that story for myself, 405 00:34:28,316 --> 00:34:30,860 I'm not made for that. 406 00:34:30,943 --> 00:34:31,861 Here, look. 407 00:34:32,779 --> 00:34:35,114 So you won't be cold. 408 00:34:35,198 --> 00:34:38,951 Here. See how much I like taking care of the people I love? 409 00:34:41,913 --> 00:34:44,248 So I understood, this is how it's going to be, 410 00:34:45,208 --> 00:34:46,501 when I like someone, 411 00:34:46,584 --> 00:34:48,920 I'm going to be with someone who's good for me. 412 00:35:12,902 --> 00:35:14,403 Whether it's the waiter, 413 00:35:15,404 --> 00:35:17,490 the parking attendant, 414 00:35:18,574 --> 00:35:21,577 it could be the doorman… 415 00:35:21,661 --> 00:35:22,870 It doesn't matter. 416 00:35:49,522 --> 00:35:51,649 We have to go all the way to the entrance. 417 00:35:53,860 --> 00:35:54,944 Let's-- 418 00:35:58,322 --> 00:36:01,534 -It's cutting off our heads. -Can you see? I can't see. 419 00:36:01,617 --> 00:36:03,995 -Yes, I can. Now I can. -Where? Can you see now? 420 00:36:04,495 --> 00:36:06,164 Yes. 421 00:36:07,498 --> 00:36:08,499 It's crazy. 422 00:36:08,583 --> 00:36:11,961 If a man went out with a really beautiful girl from the countryside, 423 00:36:12,044 --> 00:36:15,006 and the guy was rich and famous, everyone would say, 424 00:36:15,089 --> 00:36:16,674 "Oh, that's so nice, isn't it?" 425 00:36:16,757 --> 00:36:20,386 "Wow, he's going out with this nice girl from the countryside." 426 00:36:20,970 --> 00:36:24,599 But if it's a woman who becomes involved with a regular guy 427 00:36:24,682 --> 00:36:26,392 with a regular job, then, 428 00:36:26,475 --> 00:36:30,897 "Wow, you should be with a guy who's at your level. He's not on your level." 429 00:36:31,564 --> 00:36:34,609 It's like the man determines whether you have worth, not you. 430 00:36:44,368 --> 00:36:45,453 Aren't you coming? 431 00:36:47,121 --> 00:36:48,456 Aren't you coming to bed? 432 00:36:48,539 --> 00:36:51,000 Yes. I'm taking a shower and then I'll sleep. 433 00:36:51,584 --> 00:36:53,085 Then I'll wash you. 434 00:36:54,170 --> 00:36:55,922 -What? -I'll wash you. 435 00:36:56,005 --> 00:36:57,548 So you won't smell like-- 436 00:36:57,632 --> 00:36:59,759 Where is it? Come here. 437 00:37:01,260 --> 00:37:04,764 See, just a little to get rid of this gross cigarette smell. 438 00:37:09,810 --> 00:37:10,686 Okay. 439 00:37:11,437 --> 00:37:14,232 Wait, I'll take care of it. Come on. Come on, come on. 440 00:37:14,732 --> 00:37:15,566 Come on! 441 00:37:29,247 --> 00:37:30,081 Come on. 442 00:37:34,085 --> 00:37:36,003 You're covered in tattoos, aren't you? 443 00:37:36,087 --> 00:37:38,756 But you never learned how to take a shower. 444 00:37:39,257 --> 00:37:41,717 -Can I wash you too? -No. I know how to shower. 445 00:37:41,801 --> 00:37:42,718 Oh, okay. 446 00:37:44,178 --> 00:37:46,097 No, I know how to take a shower. 447 00:37:46,931 --> 00:37:48,307 You're the one who doesn't. 448 00:38:16,877 --> 00:38:17,753 Anitta! 449 00:38:19,588 --> 00:38:21,173 Look, Anitta has arrived! 450 00:38:21,924 --> 00:38:22,883 Knock, knock. 451 00:38:26,846 --> 00:38:28,014 I can't! 452 00:38:30,474 --> 00:38:33,686 -Anitta. -I can't be Anitta with you, dumbass! 453 00:38:33,769 --> 00:38:35,646 I'll have to get drunk tonight, okay? 454 00:38:35,730 --> 00:38:38,733 -Let's start drinking! -I'll start. Come on, give it to me. 455 00:38:38,816 --> 00:38:41,319 -Adult entertainment then? -I'll do it! 456 00:38:43,946 --> 00:38:46,365 Look, there's some Don Julio Rosado. 457 00:38:46,449 --> 00:38:47,408 Whoa! 458 00:38:47,491 --> 00:38:48,326 There's… 459 00:38:48,409 --> 00:38:50,786 Remember when you arrived and it was just you and me? 460 00:38:50,870 --> 00:38:52,121 I remember. 461 00:38:52,204 --> 00:38:54,206 So we were talking a certain way, right? 462 00:38:54,290 --> 00:38:55,499 Right. 463 00:38:55,583 --> 00:38:59,295 Didn't you notice how I changed when the others arrived? 464 00:38:59,795 --> 00:39:01,047 When those people come in 465 00:39:01,130 --> 00:39:04,050 and I don't feel like showing my real self… 466 00:39:06,552 --> 00:39:08,471 my personality changes. 467 00:39:09,180 --> 00:39:11,515 And sometimes I ask myself, "Fuck…" 468 00:39:12,224 --> 00:39:14,435 "Why am I suddenly like this?" 469 00:39:14,977 --> 00:39:17,021 And I know why… 470 00:39:17,688 --> 00:39:20,274 but it's not something I can control. 471 00:39:20,358 --> 00:39:21,942 Why do you think that happens? 472 00:39:22,026 --> 00:39:26,113 Because I'm afraid those people are going to judge me, I think. 473 00:39:33,454 --> 00:39:35,039 -I'm hungry. -What's up, Anitta? 474 00:39:35,122 --> 00:39:36,082 Hey, Pedro. 475 00:39:36,791 --> 00:39:37,833 Hi! 476 00:39:38,584 --> 00:39:42,963 -Come here, I'll tell you a secret. -Tell me. I'm filming the secret, okay? 477 00:39:43,464 --> 00:39:47,134 Pedro, you look so hot when you have your camera in your hands. 478 00:39:49,804 --> 00:39:51,806 Was it Anitta who said that? Or Larissa? 479 00:39:56,352 --> 00:39:58,229 -Well? Answer. -I'm so mad! 480 00:40:02,441 --> 00:40:03,859 Do you want to answer later? 481 00:40:04,985 --> 00:40:07,238 Anitta, of course. Because I'd never say that. 482 00:40:09,240 --> 00:40:12,410 -But I think it. -I want to hear about that later. 483 00:40:12,993 --> 00:40:14,829 -Huh? -I want to hear about it later. 484 00:40:51,240 --> 00:40:54,243 -The hurricane showed up, didn't it? -No, yes. Today you did. 485 00:40:54,326 --> 00:40:57,621 The more uncomfortable I am when I'm doing something as Anitta, 486 00:40:57,705 --> 00:41:00,332 the stronger Anitta comes to me, you know? 487 00:41:00,416 --> 00:41:04,420 -Tonight she means business. -She comes earlier, stronger, with more… 488 00:41:06,630 --> 00:41:08,591 Just out of control. 489 00:41:09,341 --> 00:41:12,178 When we get home, will you hug me… 490 00:41:12,261 --> 00:41:14,138 -Of course. -…if I start freaking out? 491 00:41:14,221 --> 00:41:15,055 Oh, that's easy. 492 00:41:16,474 --> 00:41:18,684 -You already do, even without a crisis. -Yes. 493 00:41:20,853 --> 00:41:22,688 When I came in to film Larissa, 494 00:41:22,771 --> 00:41:26,066 my biggest challenge was covering up what I felt for her. 495 00:41:27,943 --> 00:41:30,696 Pretending I was just following the girl from my street, 496 00:41:30,779 --> 00:41:32,656 who had become a pop star. 497 00:41:40,372 --> 00:41:43,000 -Do you know whose purse that is? -Which one? 498 00:41:44,335 --> 00:41:45,169 What purse? 499 00:41:47,630 --> 00:41:50,132 Oh, that one? No, I don't know whose it is. 500 00:41:50,216 --> 00:41:51,800 It was Carmen Miranda's. 501 00:41:51,884 --> 00:41:52,760 Oh, wow. 502 00:41:53,886 --> 00:41:55,888 "NIGHT PURSE" 503 00:41:55,971 --> 00:41:58,974 I very quickly realized our intimacy hadn't changed a bit. 504 00:42:01,894 --> 00:42:04,396 And that the difference was that, suddenly, 505 00:42:04,480 --> 00:42:06,398 I felt like I was in a love story. 506 00:42:09,652 --> 00:42:11,987 Done. Do you know what I'm about to do? 507 00:42:12,071 --> 00:42:13,113 Guess. 508 00:42:14,698 --> 00:42:17,409 -I can't believe this. Oh my God. -Lights off. 509 00:42:18,202 --> 00:42:19,745 Is this a dream? 510 00:42:19,828 --> 00:42:23,666 Don't do anything. Let me close this. Check out how dark my bedroom gets. 511 00:42:28,420 --> 00:42:29,421 My God. 512 00:42:30,923 --> 00:42:34,093 Do people think I'm really fucking insecure? 513 00:42:35,761 --> 00:42:37,763 Do you think they'll find out now? 514 00:42:39,223 --> 00:42:40,140 I think so. 515 00:42:40,724 --> 00:42:41,642 I think so too. 516 00:42:41,725 --> 00:42:45,938 I don't think anyone imagines that I go on stage thinking that it all sucks, 517 00:42:46,021 --> 00:42:48,857 that I suck, that no one wants it, that no one wants to see me, 518 00:42:48,941 --> 00:42:52,111 that everything sucks, that no one is going to like it, 519 00:42:52,194 --> 00:42:54,196 that no one is coming to the show. 520 00:42:55,030 --> 00:42:56,198 I doubt it too. 521 00:42:59,702 --> 00:43:00,536 CARNIVAL 522 00:43:00,619 --> 00:43:02,830 When Larissa told me, before going to bed, 523 00:43:02,913 --> 00:43:05,291 that she gets insecure before going on stage, 524 00:43:05,374 --> 00:43:07,084 I was totally lost. 525 00:43:07,167 --> 00:43:09,336 What's up, Rio de Janeiro! 526 00:43:13,549 --> 00:43:14,842 Because as the day began, 527 00:43:14,925 --> 00:43:17,636 she'd activate this boss mode that seemed unbeatable. 528 00:43:25,686 --> 00:43:28,939 When she's performing, she has two channels on her mic. 529 00:43:29,023 --> 00:43:31,859 One for singing and one for talking to her crew. 530 00:43:33,444 --> 00:43:34,945 This is amazing! 531 00:43:35,446 --> 00:43:36,780 Come take off the wings. 532 00:43:40,826 --> 00:43:42,870 I'm going to do the circle now. 533 00:43:58,719 --> 00:44:01,305 I'm scared this old lady is going to get crushed 534 00:44:01,388 --> 00:44:04,266 on the railing over there. Get her over here, in front row. 535 00:44:22,451 --> 00:44:24,703 Attention, city guards! 536 00:44:25,954 --> 00:44:27,956 He robbed a guy who was over there 537 00:44:28,832 --> 00:44:29,917 and went that way. 538 00:44:30,417 --> 00:44:33,837 I saw it. Not the people. I saw it. He robbed him and went that way. 539 00:44:34,463 --> 00:44:37,132 She's not happy just being a celebrity. 540 00:44:37,216 --> 00:44:39,635 She won't be on the fence, be it on an electric trio, 541 00:44:39,718 --> 00:44:41,929 or if need be, even during an election. 542 00:45:05,661 --> 00:45:08,831 And they didn't stay to check. They didn't watch the rehearsal. 543 00:45:38,569 --> 00:45:42,364 What the camera captured was a mixture of artist and producer, all at once. 544 00:45:42,448 --> 00:45:44,450 Because she's aware of everything. 545 00:46:17,232 --> 00:46:18,358 A question. 546 00:46:18,442 --> 00:46:21,695 Does Larissa feel it, when you use Anitta's energy? 547 00:46:21,779 --> 00:46:23,363 Like a… 548 00:46:24,072 --> 00:46:25,240 a recoil from a gun? 549 00:46:25,824 --> 00:46:27,659 Yeah, I mean… 550 00:46:28,285 --> 00:46:30,621 I only feel it when I get home. 551 00:46:30,704 --> 00:46:32,539 I come back home and it's like… 552 00:46:33,957 --> 00:46:36,877 as if I had been torturing myself, you know? 553 00:46:45,052 --> 00:46:45,928 What's up, Pedro? 554 00:46:46,428 --> 00:46:50,265 Did you just wake up? Did I wake you with the noise from the thing that fell? 555 00:46:50,349 --> 00:46:52,601 Let's go. One more of Larissa's tales, people. 556 00:46:53,644 --> 00:46:57,189 Once upon a time, Larissa was going to the Grammy Awards. 557 00:46:57,272 --> 00:47:00,442 Larissa started doing her own make-up right before leaving. 558 00:47:00,526 --> 00:47:01,902 Someone is calling you. 559 00:47:01,985 --> 00:47:03,487 I'm not going to cry 560 00:47:04,404 --> 00:47:06,406 I don't know whether to laugh or cry. 561 00:47:06,490 --> 00:47:11,286 Soon I'll scrub it all off my face and say, "I'm not going anymore. I'm not." 562 00:47:11,870 --> 00:47:14,331 You're making me nervous, looking at me like that. 563 00:47:17,584 --> 00:47:20,838 I'll manage somehow, and we'll go out, 564 00:47:20,921 --> 00:47:22,381 and I'm going to be gorgeous. 565 00:47:22,464 --> 00:47:24,675 Everyone is going to say, "You look amazing." 566 00:47:24,758 --> 00:47:27,469 I'll be like, "Yes, I am. Thanks." 567 00:47:28,303 --> 00:47:30,347 And that will be tonight's CliffsNotes. 568 00:47:31,306 --> 00:47:33,183 There are people dying of starvation, 569 00:47:33,267 --> 00:47:35,435 and I'm here worried about such a foolish thing. 570 00:47:36,562 --> 00:47:37,896 My life is very interesting. 571 00:47:37,980 --> 00:47:40,399 A bunch of things happen all the time. 572 00:47:40,482 --> 00:47:42,442 So you end up 573 00:47:42,526 --> 00:47:46,113 wanting to talk about all that. 574 00:47:46,196 --> 00:47:48,448 You know? To show all those things. 575 00:47:48,532 --> 00:47:52,744 And that makes it look like Larissa's life is not interesting. 576 00:47:53,370 --> 00:47:55,873 Because there isn't that avalanche of things happening, 577 00:47:55,956 --> 00:48:00,961 that bunch of plot twists, problems to be solved, etc… 578 00:48:01,044 --> 00:48:04,172 So she fades into the background. You forget to talk about her. 579 00:48:05,007 --> 00:48:06,842 And that happens to me as well. 580 00:48:07,926 --> 00:48:12,723 I am forgetting her, because her life is less intere-- 581 00:48:12,806 --> 00:48:16,894 Not less interesting, but less cluttered with information. 582 00:48:17,603 --> 00:48:19,313 I've lost my charger already. 583 00:48:19,813 --> 00:48:22,399 This is one of those moments I wish I wasn't Anitta. 584 00:48:22,900 --> 00:48:25,319 Why? Because I'm just dying to go out, 585 00:48:25,986 --> 00:48:28,280 and I don't want to have to worry about where. 586 00:48:28,363 --> 00:48:30,782 I want to go wherever I feel like going. 587 00:48:30,866 --> 00:48:34,620 Because if I go to this place, they'll say it's not good for me, 588 00:48:34,703 --> 00:48:37,205 because it's not good for me to be there. 589 00:48:37,289 --> 00:48:39,666 And if I go there, I shouldn't be on the street. 590 00:48:39,750 --> 00:48:41,251 I would like to be in the street. 591 00:48:45,839 --> 00:48:49,801 Do you have Bluetooth? Do you have Bluetooth, my friend? 592 00:49:24,169 --> 00:49:25,754 -Who is this? -Carmen Miranda. 593 00:49:25,837 --> 00:49:27,923 -Don't you know who she is? -No. 594 00:49:28,006 --> 00:49:30,759 Let's have a teachable moment for our friend 595 00:49:30,842 --> 00:49:33,845 who doesn't know who Carmen Miranda is. 596 00:49:34,930 --> 00:49:38,392 Carmen Miranda was the first Brazilian 597 00:49:38,475 --> 00:49:41,561 to be famous outside of Brazil. 598 00:49:41,645 --> 00:49:46,274 Besides her, do you know who is the only Brazilian who achieved a similar feat? 599 00:49:46,942 --> 00:49:48,026 Guess who. 600 00:49:59,329 --> 00:50:01,790 So, what did you think about tonight? 601 00:50:02,374 --> 00:50:03,208 Well… 602 00:50:03,917 --> 00:50:04,960 we had fun. 603 00:50:05,460 --> 00:50:08,130 People are always scared of telling me things… 604 00:50:08,630 --> 00:50:10,966 -Like what? -…and asking me things. 605 00:50:11,049 --> 00:50:16,054 They think, "Oh, she's Anitta, the girl who dances and twerks." 606 00:50:16,138 --> 00:50:18,807 And when it's time to have sex, they go like, 607 00:50:18,890 --> 00:50:21,518 "Oh my God, I can't, uh… 608 00:50:23,311 --> 00:50:27,065 I have to live up to expectations, because she's so famous," 609 00:50:27,566 --> 00:50:29,484 and then they can't get it up. 610 00:50:29,568 --> 00:50:33,196 In the beginning I used to feel terrible about it, 611 00:50:33,280 --> 00:50:36,450 I'd feel super sad, super sad. 612 00:50:37,325 --> 00:50:40,203 Because no one was able to be with me like that. 613 00:50:40,287 --> 00:50:44,875 And I'd think, "Fuck, why does this always happen to me?" 614 00:50:44,958 --> 00:50:48,045 I sort of acted like the victim. And nowadays I just go, "Oh." 615 00:50:48,128 --> 00:50:51,965 "Okay, if you didn't have the guts, it's because it wasn't meant to be." 616 00:50:52,883 --> 00:50:53,717 Enough. 617 00:50:55,594 --> 00:50:56,470 I'll turn it off. 618 00:50:57,512 --> 00:51:00,015 Okay. What's your favorite song? 619 00:51:00,098 --> 00:51:02,976 -Look. -Are you going to like it? I think so. 620 00:51:03,060 --> 00:51:05,062 I'm almost positive you're going to like it. 621 00:51:15,155 --> 00:51:17,616 This is the song you would listen to 622 00:51:17,699 --> 00:51:20,702 for the rest of your life if you had to choose one? 623 00:51:20,786 --> 00:51:22,621 Yeah. Will you tell me yours? 624 00:51:23,205 --> 00:51:24,664 -Mine? -Yeah. 625 00:51:25,290 --> 00:51:26,416 I'll tell you. 626 00:51:28,752 --> 00:51:30,587 This is my favorite song. 627 00:51:37,677 --> 00:51:38,595 This one. 628 00:51:39,763 --> 00:51:40,639 Wait. 629 00:51:48,105 --> 00:51:50,232 When I was a teenager, 630 00:51:51,608 --> 00:51:52,859 I saw this movie. 631 00:51:53,527 --> 00:51:55,320 I don't remember the name, 632 00:51:56,029 --> 00:52:01,326 but the girl sings this song, and it was super… 633 00:52:01,409 --> 00:52:05,330 sort of romantic, a declaration of love, 634 00:52:05,413 --> 00:52:08,625 and I've always been this romantic, 635 00:52:08,708 --> 00:52:10,919 this other me no one knows, 636 00:52:11,002 --> 00:52:12,212 this me here, 637 00:52:12,921 --> 00:52:17,384 she's that silly romantic you can already see. 638 00:52:18,218 --> 00:52:20,637 That's how it became my favorite song. 639 00:52:21,721 --> 00:52:22,848 In the whole world. 640 00:52:46,788 --> 00:52:47,914 Are you sleepy? 641 00:52:47,998 --> 00:52:49,249 I'm drunk. 642 00:52:50,750 --> 00:52:53,461 Like, here in my-- 643 00:52:53,545 --> 00:52:54,546 Once upon a time. 644 00:52:55,297 --> 00:52:58,008 In the fairy tale I came up with. 645 00:53:11,021 --> 00:53:13,815 One of the things I admire the most about Larissa, 646 00:53:13,899 --> 00:53:15,483 is that she's very spontaneous. 647 00:53:17,986 --> 00:53:19,446 Everything about her is real. 648 00:53:21,615 --> 00:53:24,326 And she can laugh and cry within less than ten seconds. 649 00:53:25,994 --> 00:53:28,205 Like seduction and pajamas, you know? 650 00:53:32,167 --> 00:53:35,086 She's the stage and shoulder to lean on at the same time. 651 00:53:37,714 --> 00:53:39,424 She's deep, she's a jokester, 652 00:53:40,383 --> 00:53:41,635 queen of the world, 653 00:53:41,718 --> 00:53:44,930 and nobody I know worries as much about other people as she does. 654 00:53:45,013 --> 00:53:46,348 Sometimes I wonder 655 00:53:46,431 --> 00:53:49,351 how such contradictions can fit into one person. 656 00:53:51,269 --> 00:53:54,981 On that day, I remember I asked her why she started crying out of the blue. 657 00:53:56,316 --> 00:53:57,817 We were laughing so hard. 658 00:54:00,695 --> 00:54:03,949 She stopped, looking so serious, looked at me and said, 659 00:54:04,032 --> 00:54:05,033 "I don't know." 660 00:54:10,372 --> 00:54:13,083 I'll bring it closer to you so you can listen properly. 661 00:54:13,583 --> 00:54:15,961 Sit here. Sit here. 662 00:54:21,383 --> 00:54:24,219 -Hello. -Come through now. 663 00:54:26,888 --> 00:54:27,806 What? 664 00:54:39,192 --> 00:54:41,861 I want you guys to listen to this fucking song 665 00:54:41,945 --> 00:54:43,738 until your ears fall off! 666 00:54:50,620 --> 00:54:51,746 So, bye, everybody. 667 00:55:02,882 --> 00:55:03,800 What? 668 00:55:05,093 --> 00:55:07,429 She comes, she does, she goes. Fuck it. 669 00:55:07,512 --> 00:55:08,930 I just saw it. 670 00:55:29,743 --> 00:55:30,869 Pajamas! 671 00:55:36,333 --> 00:55:37,751 I'm terrified of flying. 672 00:55:38,752 --> 00:55:42,339 That was one of the hardest parts for me in all these months of filming. 673 00:55:42,839 --> 00:55:46,134 But compared to what she goes through, fear of flying is nothing. 674 00:55:53,391 --> 00:55:55,560 -Hi, dear. -Hi, doctor. How are you? 675 00:55:55,643 --> 00:55:58,271 -Hi, can you hear me? How are you doing? -Go ahead. 676 00:55:58,355 --> 00:56:00,315 So, he's done the PET scan. 677 00:56:01,191 --> 00:56:04,986 The PET scan is the exam that gives us the highest probabilities. 678 00:56:05,070 --> 00:56:08,323 And the highest probability is that it's a lung tumor. 679 00:56:09,866 --> 00:56:12,660 -Cancer? -Luckily-- 680 00:56:13,244 --> 00:56:17,999 Yeah, apparently it's cancer. But it's localized. 681 00:56:18,083 --> 00:56:22,545 The PET scan looks at the whole body, and we couldn't find cancer anywhere else. 682 00:56:22,629 --> 00:56:27,258 That means if the surgery is well done, your father will be cured. 683 00:56:33,181 --> 00:56:34,891 Receiving such difficult news 684 00:56:35,392 --> 00:56:38,353 and having to continue with your millions of appointments, 685 00:56:38,436 --> 00:56:41,272 because canceling them is just not an option. 686 00:57:03,086 --> 00:57:05,463 Imagine coming up with another name for yourself 687 00:57:05,547 --> 00:57:09,050 and living your life in two completely distinct and contradictory ways. 688 00:57:50,091 --> 00:57:51,217 Mom, look! 689 00:57:54,137 --> 00:57:55,472 Am I really like that? 690 00:57:55,972 --> 00:57:56,931 Of course. 691 00:57:57,640 --> 00:58:00,852 Larissa has always made it very clear that she needed to be seen. 692 00:58:04,898 --> 00:58:08,318 But seeing her there with her mom, being doubly seen… 693 00:58:10,445 --> 00:58:13,573 this means much more to her than it does to the world. 694 00:58:14,949 --> 00:58:15,867 Thanks. 695 00:58:18,369 --> 00:58:19,996 Bye. Thank you. 696 00:58:29,672 --> 00:58:34,010 Daddy, tomorrow morning, what is the best time for the nurse to go draw your blood? 697 00:58:34,093 --> 00:58:36,304 So they'll have the results when I get there 698 00:58:36,387 --> 00:58:38,723 and we can get it all done together? 699 00:58:40,266 --> 00:58:42,352 And even though Anitta looks invincible… 700 00:58:44,479 --> 00:58:45,563 Larissa isn't. 701 00:58:50,693 --> 00:58:52,278 The math doesn't always add up. 702 00:58:55,782 --> 00:58:58,201 Welcome Anitta! 703 00:59:06,668 --> 00:59:07,835 It's all right. 704 00:59:07,919 --> 00:59:10,797 I'm already speaking Portuguese, so let's just keep going! 705 00:59:13,341 --> 00:59:14,175 Goddamn it! 706 00:59:14,259 --> 00:59:17,178 If the sound doesn't stop working again we can move on. 707 00:59:19,097 --> 00:59:21,349 If the sound stops working, sing for me. 708 00:59:21,849 --> 00:59:24,269 In English, we'll pretend everything is all right. Look-- 709 00:59:51,212 --> 00:59:54,507 Bring me my drink. I'm so done with this shit. 710 01:00:02,932 --> 01:00:06,311 No one notices it, except those who are really close. 711 01:00:07,520 --> 01:00:09,606 I want to thank everyone… 712 01:00:13,568 --> 01:00:16,195 Because it's not just that she dances, sings, 713 01:00:16,279 --> 01:00:19,240 and gives a visceral performance when she's on stage. 714 01:00:19,324 --> 01:00:21,200 If that was all, it'd be no big deal. 715 01:00:24,746 --> 01:00:29,417 She controls this gigantic operation and makes sure it's running properly. 716 01:00:31,169 --> 01:00:32,795 That must be so exhausting. 717 01:01:21,552 --> 01:01:25,515 Come on, come on. Come in or get out. That's it. Close the door. 718 01:01:26,974 --> 01:01:29,394 Oh my God, shut the door 719 01:01:30,061 --> 01:01:31,437 Man, this water is hot… 720 01:01:31,938 --> 01:01:34,315 -Did you get the-- -Yeah. 721 01:01:35,066 --> 01:01:36,025 Thanks. 722 01:02:14,564 --> 01:02:15,523 It's insane. 723 01:02:16,149 --> 01:02:19,068 This person has to give up their life. 724 01:02:20,653 --> 01:02:22,363 Of course, there's a price to pay. 725 01:02:31,497 --> 01:02:33,916 I think things reached a point where she understood 726 01:02:34,000 --> 01:02:36,669 that Larissa needed to listen to herself. 727 01:02:37,670 --> 01:02:41,841 That if she kept going at that pace, her health might really take a hit. 728 01:02:46,429 --> 01:02:48,139 And she mentioned that to me, 729 01:02:48,639 --> 01:02:51,267 because she'd been reading a book on Carmen Miranda, 730 01:02:52,393 --> 01:02:54,228 who also worked non-stop. 731 01:02:54,312 --> 01:02:56,814 And in the end, her body gave in, you know? 732 01:03:12,955 --> 01:03:16,167 It's so tricky, man. So hard. 733 01:03:17,543 --> 01:03:22,048 It's like one thing is fixed, and then there's another one… 734 01:03:23,132 --> 01:03:24,926 Right after. Like, the body… 735 01:03:25,009 --> 01:03:27,595 my body can't stand being at peace. 736 01:03:27,678 --> 01:03:29,722 I can't take it anymore, you know? 737 01:03:29,806 --> 01:03:32,225 Every time I come across someone 738 01:03:32,308 --> 01:03:33,976 who knows who Anitta is, 739 01:03:34,060 --> 01:03:35,645 but I'm not close to them, 740 01:03:35,728 --> 01:03:36,979 I become her. 741 01:03:37,939 --> 01:03:39,357 A switch is flipped. 742 01:03:39,440 --> 01:03:42,360 And I don't want to turn into that person all the time. 743 01:03:42,443 --> 01:03:44,821 I used to be able to control when I turned. 744 01:03:44,904 --> 01:03:48,157 But now that everybody knows me, I have no more control. 745 01:03:48,241 --> 01:03:50,201 And I can't stand it anymore, you know? 746 01:03:50,701 --> 01:03:54,205 I can't stand not being able to control when I will become this person. 747 01:03:54,288 --> 01:03:56,290 That's the price. You can't give up. 748 01:03:56,374 --> 01:03:59,669 That's the price you pay for being who you've been until today. 749 01:03:59,752 --> 01:04:02,839 -For that character you've created. -No, I just want to bury it all. 750 01:04:02,922 --> 01:04:05,800 It's impossible for me to give as much as I used to. 751 01:04:06,676 --> 01:04:09,345 And, like, I don't-- I can't stand it anymore. 752 01:04:11,013 --> 01:04:12,098 I just can't. 753 01:04:13,307 --> 01:04:16,435 Maybe that's why she decided 754 01:04:16,519 --> 01:04:18,646 to reconnect to herself. 755 01:04:20,106 --> 01:04:22,108 But she doesn't like things to be easy. 756 01:04:24,485 --> 01:04:26,863 She chose to do it at the world's highest peak. 757 01:07:13,070 --> 01:07:17,033 On that day I felt exactly how I feel in my career. 758 01:07:20,411 --> 01:07:24,540 I wanted to get some rest. I was feeling extremely sick, tired. 759 01:07:27,001 --> 01:07:31,088 But the people around me had such a clear picture of Anitta as someone 760 01:07:31,881 --> 01:07:33,340 who never gives up. 761 01:07:34,300 --> 01:07:37,094 Someone who gives her all until the last drop 762 01:07:37,178 --> 01:07:40,806 to be the best, to reach the top, to win more and more and more. 763 01:07:41,932 --> 01:07:43,392 And they barely believed me. 764 01:08:38,614 --> 01:08:42,576 What's wrong with giving up? What's wrong with changing your mind? 765 01:08:43,994 --> 01:08:45,621 And I wanted to be free. 766 01:08:47,289 --> 01:08:49,917 I felt that if I kept climbing, 767 01:08:50,000 --> 01:08:53,254 I would only be satisfying the expectations of the crew, 768 01:08:53,337 --> 01:08:56,257 the filming crew, whom I didn't want to disappoint. 769 01:08:56,757 --> 01:09:00,136 But now, suddenly, the will to keep quiet was louder 770 01:09:00,219 --> 01:09:01,929 than the will to reach the top. 771 01:09:03,097 --> 01:09:07,309 Maybe only reaching the halfway point gave me the best of both worlds? 772 01:09:08,018 --> 01:09:09,979 Just enjoying the place, the nature, 773 01:09:10,646 --> 01:09:13,858 capturing some footage, and being quiet. 774 01:09:16,986 --> 01:09:20,948 Okay, I won't have the footage of me reaching the top. 775 01:09:21,782 --> 01:09:22,908 But would I endure 776 01:09:22,992 --> 01:09:28,205 the consequences of getting to the top of the highest of all peaks? 777 01:09:28,289 --> 01:09:31,834 There are just too many side effects. To both things, right? 778 01:09:34,545 --> 01:09:38,465 I started to rethink my whole career, my whole life. 779 01:09:39,633 --> 01:09:42,303 I like traveling alone, walking on the street, 780 01:09:42,386 --> 01:09:44,388 walking with no bodyguards, 781 01:09:44,471 --> 01:09:48,017 befriending unknown people, people I meet at bars, 782 01:09:48,517 --> 01:09:50,895 I like dancing in the middle of the dance floor… 783 01:09:52,563 --> 01:09:54,648 Maybe if Anitta climbs even higher, 784 01:09:55,274 --> 01:09:57,776 Larissa will never get those moments again. 785 01:09:59,028 --> 01:09:59,945 Then what? 786 01:10:01,363 --> 01:10:02,573 What do we do then? 787 01:10:06,035 --> 01:10:07,244 I was happy for her. 788 01:10:09,663 --> 01:10:15,002 Because I think giving up is often exactly what we need to keep going… 789 01:10:18,339 --> 01:10:19,965 even if in a new direction. 790 01:10:21,717 --> 01:10:24,386 And the direction she's now going in is more like 791 01:10:24,470 --> 01:10:26,889 the mentality of not needing to always be on top. 792 01:10:27,806 --> 01:10:31,602 Singer Anitta spent five days at a spiritual retreat. 793 01:10:31,685 --> 01:10:34,438 She did the so-called "gestational map." 794 01:10:34,521 --> 01:10:39,109 She isolated herself in search of balance, far from the buzz of everyday life. 795 01:10:46,992 --> 01:10:49,828 I'm healed! Hey, I'm healed! It's over. 796 01:10:49,912 --> 01:10:51,413 It's over. It's all over. 797 01:10:51,497 --> 01:10:54,333 It's a matter of recovering, healing my scars, renewal. 798 01:10:54,416 --> 01:10:56,418 It's over. You've got to go there. 799 01:10:57,127 --> 01:10:58,003 Girl! 800 01:10:59,171 --> 01:11:03,092 Trust me. If you don't go, I'll drag you there. 801 01:11:03,175 --> 01:11:04,885 -My God! -They have cold ones there. 802 01:11:04,969 --> 01:11:10,391 -Mom! Wow! Mom! -Are you happy, honey? Oh, thank God! 803 01:11:10,474 --> 01:11:13,227 She didn't really open up to me very often, like, 804 01:11:13,310 --> 01:11:15,813 telling me what she was going through or something. 805 01:11:15,896 --> 01:11:20,359 She didn't tell me things. But I was always asking. 806 01:11:20,442 --> 01:11:24,488 Some days she would say, "Mom, I give up. I can't take it anymore." 807 01:11:25,864 --> 01:11:28,993 -That's Renan. He's always been like that. -That's me. 808 01:11:29,076 --> 01:11:30,244 You. 809 01:11:30,327 --> 01:11:33,664 I'm a person who screams and jumps up and down. 810 01:11:33,747 --> 01:11:35,874 -I'm a person who-- -Always has been. 811 01:11:35,958 --> 01:11:39,920 Yeah, but now I am like that and I like what I am like, you know? 812 01:11:40,004 --> 01:11:41,839 -Yeah. -That's how it's supposed to be. 813 01:11:41,922 --> 01:11:44,508 -Exactly. -And that's the way I'm supposed to be. 814 01:11:44,591 --> 01:11:47,720 -I'm joyful, I jump up and down, I sing… -Right on! 815 01:11:47,803 --> 01:11:51,765 I make jokes, I fuck up, and I like being crazy. 816 01:11:51,849 --> 01:11:54,893 And I like doing crazy things, 817 01:11:54,977 --> 01:11:57,313 and I am very happy. 818 01:11:57,813 --> 01:12:00,399 Totally nuts! Being nuts! 819 01:12:05,195 --> 01:12:06,530 Is there anyone at home? 820 01:12:07,906 --> 01:12:08,866 Beautiful! 821 01:12:12,578 --> 01:12:14,496 I think when we're kids, 822 01:12:14,580 --> 01:12:16,999 we don't really know who we are, right? 823 01:12:17,082 --> 01:12:19,585 We're whatever those around us decide we are. 824 01:12:19,668 --> 01:12:22,338 And that can last a lifetime. 825 01:12:23,255 --> 01:12:26,133 Larissa was always special, different somehow. 826 01:12:26,842 --> 01:12:29,511 But I don't know, I get the impression… 827 01:12:30,012 --> 01:12:34,058 I think she didn't fit into herself, so she tried to be more plain. 828 01:12:34,975 --> 01:12:37,686 But I think when we get to that place in life, 829 01:12:37,770 --> 01:12:39,063 in our 30s, 830 01:12:39,938 --> 01:12:42,232 we start to see what really matters. 831 01:12:44,485 --> 01:12:47,196 Anitta is a character. 832 01:12:47,279 --> 01:12:51,158 She wants to be strong and powerful. 833 01:12:53,118 --> 01:12:57,623 And inside all of that is Larissa, doing all the other things 834 01:12:57,706 --> 01:12:59,666 she has been doing since she was a kid. 835 01:13:00,167 --> 01:13:04,588 I think she's different on stage. 836 01:13:04,671 --> 01:13:07,341 But over the years, 837 01:13:07,424 --> 01:13:12,096 I've started to feel she is more like Larissa. She's being her true self. 838 01:13:12,679 --> 01:13:14,890 She's letting it happen. 839 01:13:27,069 --> 01:13:29,154 Guys, did you see the moon tonight? 840 01:13:30,239 --> 01:13:34,076 I was taking Charlie out for a walk and when I looked up, guys… 841 01:13:37,121 --> 01:13:41,291 I don't know if it's like that in Brazil, but it looks insane here. Oh my God. 842 01:13:41,375 --> 01:13:42,709 I can't stop crying. 843 01:13:43,544 --> 01:13:45,879 So beautiful. I love you all so much! 844 01:13:45,963 --> 01:13:49,258 I'm so grateful for having you in my life. What a beautiful moon! 845 01:13:52,177 --> 01:13:54,596 Man, I saw her change. 846 01:13:55,931 --> 01:13:58,767 I don't remember how many times she told me to go 847 01:13:58,851 --> 01:14:02,604 to family constellation therapy, to Kundalini, to spiritual retreats… 848 01:14:10,946 --> 01:14:14,491 I used to throw parties to get everybody drunk and fooling around. 849 01:14:14,575 --> 01:14:17,536 Now I organize meetings for spiritual growth, 850 01:14:17,619 --> 01:14:19,997 so everybody can become beings of light. 851 01:14:23,167 --> 01:14:24,168 Oh, you're chatting. 852 01:14:24,251 --> 01:14:26,628 I thought you had started a session with her. 853 01:14:26,712 --> 01:14:30,007 -No, I'm waiting. -I said-- Oh! 854 01:14:31,341 --> 01:14:34,845 And today we did Kundalini activation, right? 855 01:14:34,928 --> 01:14:38,515 Yes, a Kundalini activation. It's the most powerful energy we have. 856 01:14:38,599 --> 01:14:41,727 Oh, right now I'm all about peace and tranquility. 857 01:14:41,810 --> 01:14:44,229 Give me a hug. You need to study, don't you? 858 01:14:44,313 --> 01:14:46,940 You need some training. 859 01:14:49,193 --> 01:14:52,488 Whoa! You hugged me too! 860 01:14:55,949 --> 01:14:57,576 Give her all the hugs. 861 01:14:57,659 --> 01:14:59,870 Let's do it. You'll have to do it every ten days. 862 01:14:59,953 --> 01:15:03,540 -I don't really hug anyone. I don't-- -You hugged me. I thought it was so cute. 863 01:15:03,624 --> 01:15:06,251 -But I'm-- -Yeah, but like, isn't she the… 864 01:15:06,335 --> 01:15:08,212 -She's one of the crowd. -I've hugged you. 865 01:15:08,295 --> 01:15:10,672 I even let that hug go on. 866 01:15:10,756 --> 01:15:12,883 Now even I… 867 01:15:17,971 --> 01:15:18,805 I love you. 868 01:15:18,889 --> 01:15:22,059 She has issues with this. You have to grab her to give her a kiss. 869 01:15:22,142 --> 01:15:25,020 I grab her, she says, "Oh my God!" I say, "Calm down!" 870 01:15:27,898 --> 01:15:28,941 We're friends. 871 01:15:32,069 --> 01:15:35,697 She will find a way to do something for her spirituality, 872 01:15:35,781 --> 01:15:36,615 for her mind. 873 01:15:36,698 --> 01:15:38,158 If she doesn't get vacations, 874 01:15:38,242 --> 01:15:40,994 if she doesn't get the time to recover her energy, 875 01:15:41,078 --> 01:15:43,413 she'll get sick again. 876 01:15:43,497 --> 01:15:45,332 So it's almost an ongoing search. 877 01:15:45,415 --> 01:15:49,503 Larissa gets into everything. Yoga, Kundalini, spiritual retreats, everything, 878 01:15:49,586 --> 01:15:54,216 so she'll have the strength to go up on stage as Anitta. 879 01:16:08,772 --> 01:16:10,399 She doesn't want to be alone. 880 01:16:11,525 --> 01:16:13,360 She wants her friends by her side. 881 01:16:17,948 --> 01:16:19,908 I love you, Ju! 882 01:16:23,745 --> 01:16:24,997 Oh, girl! 883 01:16:30,460 --> 01:16:31,795 Let me have one last sip. 884 01:16:36,174 --> 01:16:37,926 -Are you going for a dip? -Girl, I'm-- 885 01:16:38,010 --> 01:16:40,345 No, but only because there's no towel to dry myself. 886 01:16:40,429 --> 01:16:42,097 But I'm so happy. 887 01:16:43,599 --> 01:16:45,434 Nature is beautiful. 888 01:16:46,518 --> 01:16:48,228 The sea is beautiful. 889 01:16:48,312 --> 01:16:51,398 The neighbors looking at us drunkards is beautiful. 890 01:16:51,982 --> 01:16:53,191 Everything is beautiful. 891 01:16:59,072 --> 01:17:02,409 We could stay here until the sun comes up. And then in the morning… 892 01:17:03,160 --> 01:17:03,994 Girl! 893 01:17:05,621 --> 01:17:09,333 I loved doing everything I've done. I think I've changed people's lives. 894 01:17:09,416 --> 01:17:12,169 But did I send them the right message? 895 01:17:12,252 --> 01:17:13,420 It's so beautiful! 896 01:17:13,503 --> 01:17:16,131 Does the sun rise over here or over there? 897 01:17:17,716 --> 01:17:21,011 I reached the point at which I had already conquered everything. 898 01:17:21,094 --> 01:17:23,847 Everything I've desired, I achieved. 899 01:17:24,640 --> 01:17:27,142 I want to be number one in the world, and I was. 900 01:17:27,225 --> 01:17:29,478 But after I reached number one in the world, 901 01:17:29,561 --> 01:17:33,440 just because everyone was like, 902 01:17:33,523 --> 01:17:35,984 "Where's the next one? Where's the next one?" 903 01:17:36,068 --> 01:17:41,114 I stopped relaxing and started worrying about where the next one was. 904 01:17:43,283 --> 01:17:45,535 Man, I had always dreamed of being number one. 905 01:17:45,619 --> 01:17:48,664 Why didn't I just enjoy it and travel somewhere? 906 01:17:49,748 --> 01:17:52,084 You're going to get all wet! 907 01:17:55,212 --> 01:17:56,963 I hate this question. 908 01:17:57,714 --> 01:18:02,177 "What are your plans for next year? What are your plans for--" 909 01:18:02,260 --> 01:18:03,887 I don't fucking know! Fuck! 910 01:18:05,097 --> 01:18:06,348 I don't fucking know! 911 01:18:08,058 --> 01:18:10,769 No one can stay on top forever, 912 01:18:12,187 --> 01:18:15,607 having all that, and being genuinely happy. 913 01:18:15,691 --> 01:18:17,401 You're only truly happy 914 01:18:17,484 --> 01:18:20,529 if you'd still be happy after losing it all. 915 01:18:21,530 --> 01:18:22,447 I think… 916 01:18:23,782 --> 01:18:26,034 if you do everything I did, 917 01:18:26,827 --> 01:18:28,995 being everywhere at the same time, 918 01:18:29,830 --> 01:18:32,082 there's always a big void. 919 01:18:32,749 --> 01:18:36,545 You don't even think of yourself anymore. 920 01:18:36,628 --> 01:18:38,255 You just want more, more. 921 01:18:38,338 --> 01:18:40,882 More attention, more and more attention. 922 01:18:43,760 --> 01:18:46,471 And I think that emptiness in me was so big 923 01:18:47,180 --> 01:18:50,892 that it didn't matter how successful I became. 924 01:18:51,727 --> 01:18:54,813 Nothing filled that void, because the void is inside, 925 01:18:54,896 --> 01:18:58,734 and we keep trying to fill the void with things from the outside. 926 01:18:59,651 --> 01:19:02,362 So if I lost it all tomorrow, would I be happy? 927 01:19:02,446 --> 01:19:04,072 That's what I want to test. 928 01:19:05,031 --> 01:19:07,993 I'd like to test it, stop and say, "Wait a minute." 929 01:19:08,076 --> 01:19:11,455 "I have to learn to be happy without any of that." 930 01:19:14,207 --> 01:19:16,626 And I think that is for me and for everyone else. 931 01:19:19,337 --> 01:19:20,881 I wanted to make this film 932 01:19:21,631 --> 01:19:23,925 to try to tell people 933 01:19:24,009 --> 01:19:27,304 you don't have to be famous and rich 934 01:19:27,387 --> 01:19:28,930 to be special. 935 01:19:29,556 --> 01:19:31,433 What if I told people… 936 01:19:33,560 --> 01:19:36,480 that there's nothing wrong 937 01:19:37,606 --> 01:19:38,815 if tomorrow… 938 01:19:40,150 --> 01:19:41,234 if next year 939 01:19:41,943 --> 01:19:45,238 you don't have a car that's cooler than the one you have? 940 01:19:46,698 --> 01:19:50,786 That it's okay if next year you don't get a better house? 941 01:19:51,870 --> 01:19:54,122 That it's okay if I don't have a hit single 942 01:19:54,206 --> 01:19:56,208 five years from now, you know? 943 01:19:58,877 --> 01:20:01,087 Because we can be happy without hits. 944 01:20:08,386 --> 01:20:10,388 Oh, I feel so good! 945 01:20:11,056 --> 01:20:13,016 Come here, doggy. Stay here with mommy. 946 01:20:13,099 --> 01:20:14,851 Nice and cozy with mommy. 947 01:20:15,519 --> 01:20:17,395 -You know what's funny? -What? 948 01:20:17,479 --> 01:20:20,941 I was reading that blue book, and I finished it. 949 01:20:21,024 --> 01:20:22,150 Yes. 950 01:20:22,234 --> 01:20:25,695 And there was this fucking amazing chapter about death. 951 01:20:26,947 --> 01:20:28,198 It's about… 952 01:20:29,366 --> 01:20:32,035 living your life as if you were going to die tomorrow. 953 01:20:35,121 --> 01:20:36,832 If you were going to die tomorrow, 954 01:20:36,915 --> 01:20:39,584 you'd value each minute of your day much more. 955 01:20:42,838 --> 01:20:46,216 You'd be like, "Wow! I'm up! Wow! Look at the sky!" 956 01:20:59,104 --> 01:21:01,147 -I want more. I want more. -Louder! 957 01:21:01,231 --> 01:21:04,192 I read that chapter and went to bed. When I woke up, I said, 958 01:21:04,276 --> 01:21:06,862 "Fuck, man. It's true!" 959 01:21:10,866 --> 01:21:12,951 And then everything changed for me. 960 01:21:16,705 --> 01:21:18,456 I woke up that day… 961 01:21:22,210 --> 01:21:23,336 like, 962 01:21:23,420 --> 01:21:29,175 marveling at everything, at the hotel, at the sky, going, "Damn!" 963 01:21:29,759 --> 01:21:31,595 And I did the show very happily 964 01:21:31,678 --> 01:21:33,638 because I didn't give a damn 965 01:21:33,722 --> 01:21:37,726 what was going to happen afterward, if people were watching or not. 966 01:21:37,809 --> 01:21:40,854 Damn, I just wanted to have fun doing the show. 967 01:21:40,937 --> 01:21:44,065 Damn, I just wanted to enjoy every second of that day. 968 01:21:50,739 --> 01:21:53,241 The first time I saw Larissa, I came home euphoric. 969 01:21:53,325 --> 01:21:56,620 It was like Christmas or New Year's Eve or something. 970 01:21:57,120 --> 01:21:59,080 Look at you, all white with snow. 971 01:22:01,291 --> 01:22:02,667 -It's cool? -Uh-huh. 972 01:22:02,751 --> 01:22:04,252 -Wait. -So nice. 973 01:22:04,336 --> 01:22:06,588 When we kissed, I felt the same thing. 974 01:22:12,969 --> 01:22:15,472 And when she invited me to be part of this film, 975 01:22:15,555 --> 01:22:16,765 it was sort of the same. 976 01:22:16,848 --> 01:22:18,683 -Did you hear? -Of course I did. 977 01:22:19,434 --> 01:22:22,520 Sure, she knew I was working in Film. 978 01:22:22,604 --> 01:22:26,066 A long time had passed. The proposal was completely professional. 979 01:22:28,777 --> 01:22:32,530 Check, check, check, check. Testing audio. 980 01:22:35,617 --> 01:22:38,370 I'm saving your ass again, Pedro. Let it be on the recording. 981 01:22:38,453 --> 01:22:41,623 I felt as if I was 13 again, you know? 982 01:22:41,706 --> 01:22:44,668 Rehearsing what I was going to say to her after school. 983 01:22:44,751 --> 01:22:46,461 What are my eyes saying now? 984 01:22:46,962 --> 01:22:49,506 I never thought we'd experience what we did. 985 01:22:49,589 --> 01:22:50,757 I'm embarrassed to say. 986 01:22:51,716 --> 01:22:52,842 -Say it! -I almost died-- 987 01:22:52,926 --> 01:22:56,388 -So I can be sure you can read my mind! -No, no! I'm embarrassed! 988 01:22:56,471 --> 01:23:00,016 I fell in love all over again. And I think she did, too. 989 01:23:00,100 --> 01:23:02,894 Can you put that camera aside and come sit next to me? 990 01:23:02,978 --> 01:23:05,105 I don't want to keep talking to the camera. 991 01:23:08,650 --> 01:23:10,986 Damn, Pedro, you're fucking amazing, aren't you? 992 01:23:11,069 --> 01:23:15,281 You do tattoos, you cook, you're so damn hot, 993 01:23:15,365 --> 01:23:19,995 you can fuck, you play the drums, you play the guitar, you're cultured. 994 01:23:20,078 --> 01:23:24,499 Either you're fucking awesome, or I've become a fool in love. 995 01:23:24,582 --> 01:23:27,419 Charlie won't let me hug you, Pedro. 996 01:23:27,502 --> 01:23:28,837 Are you still on a call? 997 01:23:37,429 --> 01:23:39,305 I'll show up on that call. 998 01:24:38,281 --> 01:24:41,451 There's very little room in Anitta's life for a relationship. 999 01:24:42,577 --> 01:24:44,662 Okay, go. I have to go to therapy. 1000 01:24:45,163 --> 01:24:47,916 I've actually only seen Larissa, 1001 01:24:48,500 --> 01:24:50,376 the Larissa I used to know… 1002 01:24:50,460 --> 01:24:51,294 I don't know, 1003 01:24:51,920 --> 01:24:55,006 the Larissa I thought I knew, or I think I know, 1004 01:24:55,090 --> 01:24:58,968 when we went back to the hotel room, for one, two hours, tops. 1005 01:25:10,605 --> 01:25:14,526 But the truth is I screwed up with her. And she no longer wanted to be with me. 1006 01:25:15,777 --> 01:25:16,736 Right away. 1007 01:25:18,029 --> 01:25:21,783 If I had to say what Larissa's main personality fault is, it would be this-- 1008 01:25:22,826 --> 01:25:24,911 her frightening ability to cut off situations 1009 01:25:24,994 --> 01:25:28,832 when they don't align perfectly with what she considers right. 1010 01:25:33,211 --> 01:25:34,587 What are you up to today? 1011 01:25:35,505 --> 01:25:37,006 What are you doing today? 1012 01:25:47,559 --> 01:25:49,769 Who should the first slice go to, Larissa? 1013 01:25:49,853 --> 01:25:50,979 People are digging in! 1014 01:25:53,314 --> 01:25:56,442 It's my first ever, Brazil. Give me your support. 1015 01:25:57,944 --> 01:25:58,862 Got it. 1016 01:26:04,909 --> 01:26:06,828 The fact is, after that night, 1017 01:26:08,121 --> 01:26:09,664 we went our separate ways. 1018 01:26:11,291 --> 01:26:14,836 I was still on the project, the camera was still on… 1019 01:26:17,422 --> 01:26:19,090 but the lens had become a wall. 1020 01:26:47,285 --> 01:26:48,786 -Are you sad? -I'm not. 1021 01:26:50,246 --> 01:26:52,207 Then why is our energy weird like this? 1022 01:26:53,333 --> 01:26:54,250 Well… 1023 01:27:00,256 --> 01:27:03,509 when we don't know what's going on, things get weird. 1024 01:27:03,593 --> 01:27:06,304 Unless you feel like clearing things up for me. 1025 01:27:06,971 --> 01:27:08,431 What's going on? 1026 01:27:08,932 --> 01:27:12,143 This relationship, me working with you, 1027 01:27:12,936 --> 01:27:15,980 it's awful for me, to protect myself from my feelings. 1028 01:27:16,064 --> 01:27:17,523 In the beginning, 1029 01:27:18,775 --> 01:27:20,777 I told you this shouldn't happen, right? 1030 01:27:20,860 --> 01:27:23,112 -Uh-huh. -That it would mess things up. 1031 01:27:24,781 --> 01:27:26,115 And who insisted? 1032 01:27:27,742 --> 01:27:28,618 You did. 1033 01:27:29,869 --> 01:27:31,788 So you act one way, 1034 01:27:31,871 --> 01:27:34,165 then you change your mind, 1035 01:27:34,249 --> 01:27:37,168 you don't explain why, don't talk to me or say anything. 1036 01:27:38,586 --> 01:27:41,464 No one can be forced to be with anybody. No one. 1037 01:27:43,341 --> 01:27:45,134 -No o-- -Are you filming? 1038 01:27:45,218 --> 01:27:47,720 Yes, we are. But it's okay. What's up? 1039 01:27:47,804 --> 01:27:51,140 I just wanted to tell you if you don't say hi to my daughter she will die. 1040 01:27:51,224 --> 01:27:53,851 -I'll do it right away. -Damn it. Did I screw up? 1041 01:27:54,435 --> 01:27:57,146 I wanted to work it out. But she had decided. 1042 01:28:03,695 --> 01:28:05,321 Last day of shooting. 1043 01:28:05,405 --> 01:28:07,991 Mauro's 60th birthday, Larissa's father. 1044 01:28:09,033 --> 01:28:11,828 Larissa was always big on birthdays. 1045 01:28:11,911 --> 01:28:15,290 In that sense, she's just like Anitta. She loves to throw a party. 1046 01:28:15,999 --> 01:28:18,626 Not just for her, but for everyone she loves. 1047 01:28:19,419 --> 01:28:21,254 I don't know how she finds the time. 1048 01:28:21,337 --> 01:28:26,259 Sometimes I think she's like a clock that runs on a different schedule. 1049 01:28:26,884 --> 01:28:30,680 She is in the eye of the hurricane, solving hundreds of problems, 1050 01:28:30,763 --> 01:28:35,018 she pauses everything for a friend's call until the problem is solved. 1051 01:28:39,897 --> 01:28:44,319 When I sang to 20,000 people, I was super chill, but now… 1052 01:28:44,402 --> 01:28:45,528 Totally chill. 1053 01:28:48,323 --> 01:28:50,199 Good evening, everyone! 1054 01:28:52,869 --> 01:28:55,705 Welcome, my dad's friends, our family. 1055 01:28:56,539 --> 01:29:00,084 This is my dad's first birthday party ever, 1056 01:29:00,168 --> 01:29:02,962 so we had to do it in style, right? 1057 01:29:03,046 --> 01:29:04,047 So I said to him, 1058 01:29:04,130 --> 01:29:09,177 "Dad, you're so… it really is impossible to surprise you, isn't it?" 1059 01:29:09,761 --> 01:29:12,263 He said, "Well, yeah. I'm a pai de santo." 1060 01:29:13,097 --> 01:29:15,683 But there's one surprise he wasn't able to foresee. 1061 01:29:16,476 --> 01:29:18,019 That tonight's show is on me. 1062 01:29:18,102 --> 01:29:19,312 You may start now. 1063 01:30:08,111 --> 01:30:11,030 All my children have followed my spiritual path. 1064 01:30:11,531 --> 01:30:13,574 We all have orishas. 1065 01:30:13,658 --> 01:30:18,204 When your paths are well taken care of, the orisha finds the way for you. 1066 01:30:18,287 --> 01:30:19,872 The way of ancestors. 1067 01:30:21,374 --> 01:30:24,168 Larissa, her orisha is a child. 1068 01:30:24,252 --> 01:30:26,087 It's an Ochosi. A child. 1069 01:30:26,170 --> 01:30:30,758 Oh my God! 1070 01:30:37,223 --> 01:30:38,516 -Dad. -Hey, honey! 1071 01:30:39,100 --> 01:30:41,352 Look what I'm wearing tonight. 1072 01:30:42,854 --> 01:30:43,980 Am I not beautiful? 1073 01:30:45,189 --> 01:30:47,024 You look like an orisha. 1074 01:30:49,902 --> 01:30:52,697 These big events in the world of the super mega famous, 1075 01:30:53,197 --> 01:30:55,950 that's something I think I'd never be able to handle. 1076 01:30:56,784 --> 01:30:58,035 But she was so happy. 1077 01:30:58,911 --> 01:31:01,122 When she got the call from her father 1078 01:31:01,205 --> 01:31:04,375 telling her that he was completely cancer-free, cured, 1079 01:31:04,459 --> 01:31:08,171 she almost started dancing in the middle of the street. 1080 01:31:08,254 --> 01:31:09,797 She's such a character. 1081 01:31:12,383 --> 01:31:16,095 I can't help but think that her life really does seem like a movie. 1082 01:31:16,179 --> 01:31:19,056 She won a scholarship in a school pageant wearing a dress 1083 01:31:19,140 --> 01:31:20,683 made of plastic coffee cups! 1084 01:31:20,766 --> 01:31:23,478 She was six. Six years old. 1085 01:31:23,561 --> 01:31:26,939 And now her outfit is covered in pearls. 1086 01:31:30,943 --> 01:31:33,446 And the girl I first met in Honório, 1087 01:31:33,529 --> 01:31:36,324 and the woman I met again 1088 01:31:36,407 --> 01:31:37,492 on stage, 1089 01:31:37,575 --> 01:31:41,954 is a suburban girl who changed her name to handle being so many things. 1090 01:31:42,038 --> 01:31:44,624 Being the most affectionate daughter and sister, 1091 01:31:44,707 --> 01:31:46,626 and at the same time, run her own empire. 1092 01:31:46,709 --> 01:31:49,962 I love my mom, I love my dad, I love my brother. 1093 01:31:50,046 --> 01:31:54,550 My mom is a hard-ass. It's really hard to get past her shell. 1094 01:31:54,634 --> 01:31:56,344 She's a great mother, 1095 01:31:56,928 --> 01:31:59,972 but she never hugged me or kissed me. 1096 01:32:01,557 --> 01:32:04,477 Now she's my best friend. 1097 01:32:04,560 --> 01:32:07,104 I call her all the time. And it's perfect. 1098 01:32:09,273 --> 01:32:11,150 After spending so much time with her, 1099 01:32:11,817 --> 01:32:13,903 I've come to realize that Larissa and Anitta, 1100 01:32:13,986 --> 01:32:18,324 who previously fought to see who'd take up more room in her mind, 1101 01:32:18,407 --> 01:32:20,785 or who was going to win that battle, 1102 01:32:20,868 --> 01:32:23,162 have now understood what I've also understood. 1103 01:32:23,871 --> 01:32:27,583 You can't live life rejecting 50% of who you are. 1104 01:32:27,667 --> 01:32:30,294 And deep down, we all carry that same duality. 1105 01:32:30,378 --> 01:32:31,837 Nobody is just one single thing. 1106 01:33:04,579 --> 01:33:09,875 And I really hope we can meet again some other time in our lives. 1107 01:33:09,959 --> 01:33:12,378 I hope I can film her the way I did, 1108 01:33:12,461 --> 01:33:16,966 dancing, singing, and witnessing that unforgettable meeting 1109 01:33:17,049 --> 01:33:19,552 between her and the power of the speaker. 1110 01:33:19,635 --> 01:33:23,931 Larissa! Larissa! Larissa! Larissa! 1111 01:33:44,577 --> 01:33:46,120 Look, the day has dawned. 1112 01:33:47,538 --> 01:33:48,623 Are you going to run? 1113 01:33:59,300 --> 01:34:01,636 This was better than going to any club. 1114 01:34:02,887 --> 01:34:03,971 -Right? -Yeah. 1115 01:34:04,680 --> 01:34:05,598 Look, I'm all wet. 1116 01:34:05,681 --> 01:34:09,477 We'd be twerking to the same old songs. 1117 01:34:09,560 --> 01:34:12,396 I mean, they are great songs, but we've done that before. 1118 01:34:14,440 --> 01:34:16,651 And we got to see the sunrise. 1119 01:34:18,486 --> 01:34:21,656 I had never been here before I was a singer. 1120 01:34:21,739 --> 01:34:22,823 To the South Zone. 1121 01:34:24,784 --> 01:34:28,704 I lived in Rio and I had never come to São Conrado. 1122 01:34:28,788 --> 01:34:30,456 I had never been to this beach. 1123 01:34:33,000 --> 01:34:34,710 Better than going to a club. 1124 01:34:34,794 --> 01:34:36,212 Better than going to a club. 1125 01:34:36,962 --> 01:34:37,963 Fuck! 1126 01:34:38,547 --> 01:34:43,052 A bunch of drunk people pissing me off, talking so much. 1127 01:34:44,053 --> 01:34:45,971 Yeah, I have talked a lot tonight too. 1128 01:34:48,474 --> 01:34:50,685 But I said intelligent things. 1129 01:34:55,981 --> 01:34:58,234 I'm so happy. 1130 01:34:59,485 --> 01:35:01,612 I'm so happy! 1131 01:35:06,659 --> 01:35:09,203 I've decided to be very fucking happy 1132 01:35:10,162 --> 01:35:13,040 and I will be happy no matter what kind of shit happens. 1133 01:35:14,583 --> 01:35:16,877 Can't you decide to be happy too? 1134 01:35:21,882 --> 01:35:24,093 So why aren't you happy yet? 1135 01:35:38,274 --> 01:35:41,193 I think I want to have sex. 1136 01:35:42,027 --> 01:35:43,112 I'll find someone. 1137 01:35:54,582 --> 01:35:57,209 Guess who I'll-- You're never going to guess. 1138 01:36:06,385 --> 01:36:08,262 I want, uh… 1139 01:36:09,263 --> 01:36:10,514 How do you say it? 1140 01:36:10,598 --> 01:36:11,807 Not having sex. 1141 01:36:12,308 --> 01:36:16,103 I want to have intercourse while listening to mantras today. 1142 01:36:30,576 --> 01:36:37,583 If I leave everything behind and become a mantra singer on some mountain-- 1143 01:36:37,666 --> 01:36:39,960 -I'll come with you. -…will you come with me?