1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:08,320 --> 00:00:11,040 -Are you driving or biking? -I'm driving. 4 00:00:12,800 --> 00:00:15,360 I'm at Østerport now. 5 00:00:16,760 --> 00:00:19,320 Østerport? I thought you were in Nyhavn. 6 00:00:25,720 --> 00:00:29,720 -You're calling to ask when I'll be home? -No, I need some emotional support. 7 00:00:29,800 --> 00:00:32,760 I'm on my own, and I can't handle the meltdowns 8 00:00:32,840 --> 00:00:36,040 when I'm carrying one kid and can't take care of the other. 9 00:00:36,120 --> 00:00:37,080 I get that, but… 10 00:00:37,160 --> 00:00:40,840 I just need some support when one of them is completely losing it. 11 00:00:42,040 --> 00:00:44,560 How are you doing? 12 00:00:48,480 --> 00:00:52,240 -I just need some support. -I don't think that's why you're calling. 13 00:00:52,320 --> 00:00:56,080 It sounds like you need to vent, 14 00:00:56,160 --> 00:00:57,800 and you're taking it out on me. 15 00:00:57,880 --> 00:00:59,960 -I can't do anything about it now. -No. 16 00:01:00,040 --> 00:01:03,400 I'm not taking it out on you. I called to ask when you'll be home. 17 00:01:03,480 --> 00:01:05,880 I need some support. That's it. 18 00:01:06,720 --> 00:01:08,960 I'm in these situations all the time, 19 00:01:09,040 --> 00:01:12,200 and have no one to call to get some support, you know? 20 00:01:15,520 --> 00:01:17,040 Look at this. 21 00:01:17,120 --> 00:01:18,480 See you soon. 22 00:01:19,320 --> 00:01:20,640 -See you soon. -Bye. 23 00:01:20,720 --> 00:01:21,720 Bye. 24 00:01:35,800 --> 00:01:37,560 It's crazy, man. 25 00:01:37,640 --> 00:01:39,440 This is insane, man. 26 00:01:40,040 --> 00:01:41,480 It's crazy! 27 00:01:44,640 --> 00:01:47,840 This is insane. Absolutely insane. 28 00:01:50,600 --> 00:01:52,600 Royal Arena, make some noise! 29 00:01:56,400 --> 00:01:59,600 Something inside me is always in a hurry. 30 00:02:06,080 --> 00:02:08,080 There's something just around the corner 31 00:02:08,720 --> 00:02:14,280 that's gonna be crazier and bigger and louder than ever before. 32 00:02:16,600 --> 00:02:18,000 Hi. My name's Christopher. 33 00:02:18,080 --> 00:02:22,120 That sense of urgency has driven me for many years, 34 00:02:22,200 --> 00:02:25,800 and I know I wouldn't have made it without it, without that fire. 35 00:02:25,880 --> 00:02:28,000 What's your dream for your music? 36 00:02:28,080 --> 00:02:30,280 Sell loads of albums. Play Madison Square Garden. 37 00:02:30,360 --> 00:02:32,160 The sky's the limit, right? 38 00:02:38,440 --> 00:02:41,480 I've always said yes to everything, 39 00:02:41,560 --> 00:02:44,800 to every opportunity to get my music out there. 40 00:02:45,320 --> 00:02:47,240 He can sing and write music, 41 00:02:47,320 --> 00:02:50,120 and tonight he's making his debut as an actor. 42 00:02:50,200 --> 00:02:54,040 The musician Christopher stars in a new Danish movie 43 00:02:54,120 --> 00:02:56,320 called A Beautiful Life. 44 00:02:56,400 --> 00:02:59,520 You drag me onstage in front of 100 people and leave me hanging. 45 00:02:59,600 --> 00:03:01,160 I immediately thought, 46 00:03:01,240 --> 00:03:04,040 "This is a huge opportunity. It's just what I want." 47 00:03:04,120 --> 00:03:08,000 "Of course, I need to compose the entire soundtrack for the movie." 48 00:03:13,400 --> 00:03:15,880 Your movie's being released globally. 49 00:03:15,960 --> 00:03:18,080 -In 190 countries tomorrow. -How does it feel? 50 00:03:18,160 --> 00:03:21,120 I'm incredibly excited 51 00:03:21,200 --> 00:03:23,160 to see how people react to it. 52 00:03:23,240 --> 00:03:24,240 MUSICIAN DEBUTS AS ACTOR 53 00:03:25,760 --> 00:03:26,800 NO. 1 WORLDWIDE ON NETFLIX 54 00:03:30,600 --> 00:03:32,520 COPENHAGEN 2023 55 00:04:01,320 --> 00:04:02,960 Quite a contrast, isn't it? 56 00:04:03,480 --> 00:04:06,080 I was just told the movie's made the US top ten. 57 00:04:06,160 --> 00:04:08,320 I'm celebrating with a bottle of milk. 58 00:04:09,640 --> 00:04:11,680 It's blowing up on all platforms. 59 00:04:11,760 --> 00:04:15,120 Instagram, Spotify, Netflix. 60 00:04:15,200 --> 00:04:16,600 It's exploding. 61 00:04:16,680 --> 00:04:17,960 Look at that face. 62 00:04:18,920 --> 00:04:21,120 That's how I felt when I woke up this morning. 63 00:04:27,920 --> 00:04:29,800 What does it mean, right? 64 00:04:30,760 --> 00:04:33,200 What does this actually mean? 65 00:04:33,280 --> 00:04:35,440 It's life-changing, you know? 66 00:05:00,560 --> 00:05:02,320 Let me play something else I've written. 67 00:05:03,320 --> 00:05:05,040 Out of the way. I'm playing hits. 68 00:05:25,480 --> 00:05:27,640 -It's so nice! -Isn't it nice? 69 00:05:27,720 --> 00:05:31,240 Right before we leave, we have to hear all the songs from your new album. 70 00:05:31,320 --> 00:05:32,800 Ready to hear my new album? 71 00:05:32,880 --> 00:05:36,640 It's great we get to spend the next four days together. 72 00:05:39,880 --> 00:05:43,480 Nulle, what are you most looking forward to about going to Bornholm? 73 00:05:44,360 --> 00:05:46,720 Having a Krølle-Bølle ice cream, right? 74 00:05:46,800 --> 00:05:48,800 I'm looking forward to that myself. 75 00:05:48,880 --> 00:05:50,960 -That's a great sound. -Honey, look at you. 76 00:05:51,040 --> 00:05:52,040 Great sound. 77 00:05:54,040 --> 00:05:55,800 Before you start the car, 78 00:05:55,880 --> 00:05:57,920 throw the dirty diapers in the trash outside 79 00:05:58,000 --> 00:05:59,160 for when it's emptied. 80 00:06:00,000 --> 00:06:02,200 -Yeah. -It's right inside the entrance. 81 00:06:02,280 --> 00:06:04,080 Which one do they go in? 82 00:06:04,160 --> 00:06:06,160 In general waste, baby. 83 00:06:06,240 --> 00:06:09,800 Right, of course. Use your head, Christopher. General waste. 84 00:06:10,800 --> 00:06:12,880 I've got some awesome news to tell you. 85 00:06:12,960 --> 00:06:14,400 Sounds great. 86 00:06:15,160 --> 00:06:16,360 In a reversed world. 87 00:06:16,440 --> 00:06:17,680 -Are you serious? -Yeah. 88 00:06:17,760 --> 00:06:19,800 -Is it about Portugal? -Yeah. 89 00:06:19,880 --> 00:06:21,480 A TV show's come up in Korea. 90 00:06:22,000 --> 00:06:24,200 And some huge promo stuff. 91 00:06:24,840 --> 00:06:27,760 Didn't we book those tickets yesterday or the day before? 92 00:06:33,360 --> 00:06:36,880 Damn! Looks like we won't be going on summer vacation this year. 93 00:06:36,960 --> 00:06:38,880 But we can go another time. 94 00:06:43,320 --> 00:06:47,080 We'll just stay here, right? We didn't really need a… 95 00:06:47,160 --> 00:06:49,880 -That hurt, Isabelle! -That's how I feel too. 96 00:06:50,960 --> 00:06:52,560 Should I pinch you? 97 00:06:52,640 --> 00:06:54,800 -Speaking of which… -We'll go in January. 98 00:06:55,400 --> 00:06:58,760 Yeah, but, honey, that's a long way off. 99 00:06:58,840 --> 00:07:01,880 We need to spend some time together as a family. 100 00:07:03,360 --> 00:07:05,760 -It's just five days we've booked. -Right. 101 00:07:05,840 --> 00:07:08,080 -It's not like we're gone for two weeks. -No. 102 00:07:08,160 --> 00:07:11,240 But of course you should. If it's really important. 103 00:07:11,320 --> 00:07:13,520 Did you put one of these in the diaper bag? 104 00:07:13,600 --> 00:07:16,280 I bought flexible tickets, so you can cancel them. 105 00:07:16,360 --> 00:07:17,880 -That was damn lucky. -Yeah. 106 00:07:18,760 --> 00:07:20,160 Or postpone it. 107 00:07:20,240 --> 00:07:22,040 We could go in September. 108 00:07:23,520 --> 00:07:25,240 -And then… -I have a show at Royal Arena. 109 00:07:27,040 --> 00:07:29,000 And you're on tour in October and November? 110 00:07:30,200 --> 00:07:31,120 There, sweetie. 111 00:07:34,640 --> 00:07:38,320 -Is everything in the car? -No. Two more bags to go. 112 00:07:39,000 --> 00:07:40,920 We'll take them when we lock up. 113 00:07:57,440 --> 00:07:58,640 Is that nice? 114 00:08:01,080 --> 00:08:02,160 It's cold, right? 115 00:08:02,240 --> 00:08:03,360 -Check this out. -Yeah. 116 00:08:06,720 --> 00:08:09,480 Wow! Impressive. Sixty. 117 00:08:11,160 --> 00:08:13,640 It's so nice having a few days like this. 118 00:08:14,280 --> 00:08:17,600 -Now we can go home a week early. -Christopher. 119 00:08:20,560 --> 00:08:25,320 So when are we jumping into Opal Lake, playing miniature golf and ludo, 120 00:08:25,400 --> 00:08:28,680 making pancakes, and doing all the things I was looking forward to? 121 00:08:28,760 --> 00:08:32,360 Everything you were looking forward to. Playing ludo, playing solitaire… 122 00:08:32,440 --> 00:08:34,200 Playing miniature golf. 123 00:08:34,280 --> 00:08:35,640 I love miniature golf. 124 00:08:37,240 --> 00:08:41,800 We have 20 or 30 years to lie about on Bornholm doing nothing. 125 00:08:42,440 --> 00:08:45,960 But I've been given this opportunity, and it's happening right now. 126 00:08:46,040 --> 00:08:48,240 Sure. That's why you say yes to everything, 127 00:08:48,320 --> 00:08:53,000 and why we're leaving Bornholm early and canceling Portugal. 128 00:08:53,080 --> 00:08:56,240 It's because your job comes first right now, right? 129 00:08:59,040 --> 00:09:01,360 I'm just not that into vacations. 130 00:09:01,440 --> 00:09:03,560 It's great for four days, 131 00:09:03,640 --> 00:09:07,680 but then I get restless and start thinking I have to work out or ride a Jet Ski. 132 00:09:12,920 --> 00:09:16,120 There are seven ducklings there. And two swans. Aren't they cute? 133 00:09:16,720 --> 00:09:19,880 Seven. We need to hurry up, honey. We only have two. 134 00:09:20,560 --> 00:09:23,480 -You want seven kids? -No, but I'd like more. 135 00:09:23,560 --> 00:09:25,280 Just three or four. 136 00:09:26,240 --> 00:09:27,120 You know? 137 00:09:29,040 --> 00:09:31,960 If you had to choose, how many kids would you have? 138 00:09:32,040 --> 00:09:33,600 -Two. -You're not serious. 139 00:09:33,680 --> 00:09:36,240 -I'll stop there. -Then you can't have more kids. 140 00:09:36,320 --> 00:09:37,320 No. 141 00:09:37,400 --> 00:09:39,560 -You could have another one right now? -No. 142 00:09:41,040 --> 00:09:42,440 But in four months. 143 00:09:46,400 --> 00:09:49,200 -Wow. -Hi. Kiss. 144 00:09:50,200 --> 00:09:52,640 -Could you really, though? -I just feel like… 145 00:09:52,720 --> 00:09:56,080 You'll never regret having kids. 146 00:09:56,160 --> 00:09:57,240 I mean… 147 00:09:57,320 --> 00:10:01,280 We're not talking about regretting it. Because we won't. I know it. 148 00:10:01,360 --> 00:10:05,880 But with everything going on right now, and having our hands full with two kids… 149 00:10:07,040 --> 00:10:08,600 It wears me out. 150 00:10:08,680 --> 00:10:12,280 Would you have a third kid now if I told you it'll carry on like this? 151 00:10:12,360 --> 00:10:14,680 But it will carry on like this. 152 00:10:15,680 --> 00:10:18,520 Just because you have some sort of career dream, 153 00:10:18,600 --> 00:10:20,920 I'd still like us to have… 154 00:10:21,000 --> 00:10:22,680 "Some sort of career dream." 155 00:10:22,760 --> 00:10:25,640 "Just because you have this fantasy about being a musician, 156 00:10:25,720 --> 00:10:29,480 it doesn't mean I don't have to have more kids. As in right now!" 157 00:10:29,560 --> 00:10:31,480 You dream of having more kids too. 158 00:10:31,560 --> 00:10:34,720 I dream of lots of things, but not having a third kid right now. 159 00:10:34,800 --> 00:10:36,240 I can tell you that much. 160 00:10:41,040 --> 00:10:45,280 What would happen if, from now on, you just said, 161 00:10:45,360 --> 00:10:48,560 "For the next ten years, I'll focus on being a dad"? 162 00:10:48,640 --> 00:10:52,000 "Because they're here right now. I have them close to me right now." 163 00:10:52,520 --> 00:10:56,760 -The first ten years won't come back. -That's a damn good question. 164 00:10:56,840 --> 00:10:59,120 What if you turned work down? 165 00:10:59,200 --> 00:11:02,080 Found a job that let you pick them up from day care 166 00:11:02,160 --> 00:11:05,320 and be around every day and every weekend? 167 00:11:05,400 --> 00:11:09,000 -What would happen to you? -I'd be able to slow down a bit. 168 00:11:09,080 --> 00:11:12,600 But other things would stress me out. That feeling of "What if?" 169 00:11:12,680 --> 00:11:16,480 "What if I hadn't pressed pause? What if I'd kept going?" 170 00:11:16,560 --> 00:11:19,720 One of the main reasons I'm doing this 171 00:11:21,320 --> 00:11:24,600 is that I want to make the most of my potential. I know that… 172 00:11:24,680 --> 00:11:26,200 -Why? -I don't know. 173 00:11:26,280 --> 00:11:31,320 Is that the meaning of life? To make the most of your potential? 174 00:11:35,120 --> 00:11:37,360 -It's meaningful to me. -Yeah. 175 00:11:37,440 --> 00:11:40,600 Knowing that I have the potential to go all the way. 176 00:11:43,800 --> 00:11:46,040 And I don't think a lot of people have that. 177 00:11:49,800 --> 00:11:51,240 This one has potential. 178 00:12:23,320 --> 00:12:26,240 I wrote this song, "A Beautiful Life," 179 00:12:27,040 --> 00:12:31,040 when Cille and I were talking about having kids. 180 00:12:39,000 --> 00:12:40,720 -Three, two, one! -No! 181 00:12:42,520 --> 00:12:45,400 I've always known I wanted to be a dad, 182 00:12:45,480 --> 00:12:49,080 but I kept thinking that the timing wasn't right. 183 00:12:49,160 --> 00:12:50,360 Hi! 184 00:12:53,520 --> 00:12:57,560 And at the time, I really did have a beautiful life. 185 00:13:01,000 --> 00:13:04,000 I felt like, "It can't get any cooler than this." 186 00:13:04,080 --> 00:13:05,960 Milano. 187 00:13:06,040 --> 00:13:08,440 One of the things I was afraid of 188 00:13:08,520 --> 00:13:11,000 was losing the part where you're just a couple in love. 189 00:13:11,520 --> 00:13:14,200 And going from being two 190 00:13:15,600 --> 00:13:18,040 to being three is a pretty crazy change. 191 00:13:42,040 --> 00:13:45,120 We're starting nice and easy with the golden funky bird… 192 00:13:46,320 --> 00:13:48,120 Holy shit! 193 00:13:52,520 --> 00:13:55,680 And she quite rightly pointed out 194 00:13:55,760 --> 00:13:58,840 that the timing was never going to be perfect in our lives. 195 00:14:06,840 --> 00:14:09,120 I thought I was saying goodbye to a beautiful life, 196 00:14:09,200 --> 00:14:12,360 but at the same time, I knew deep down 197 00:14:13,360 --> 00:14:16,640 that when that baby came, it would change everything, 198 00:14:16,720 --> 00:14:21,160 give everything a new depth and a new meaning. 199 00:14:21,240 --> 00:14:24,040 Our lives would have a whole new meaning. 200 00:14:26,520 --> 00:14:28,880 Hi, pumpkin. Hi. 201 00:14:28,960 --> 00:14:32,400 There's another human being who's completely dependent on you. 202 00:14:32,480 --> 00:14:36,520 You have to put everything that little human needs to learn in their backpack. 203 00:14:36,600 --> 00:14:39,120 It's the responsibility and the weight of it all. 204 00:14:39,200 --> 00:14:42,520 Now I can't imagine a life without those kids. 205 00:14:46,600 --> 00:14:49,240 Reaching that point, that's the most beautiful life. 206 00:14:49,760 --> 00:14:51,600 The most precious thing you have. 207 00:15:11,360 --> 00:15:13,880 The point of the song 208 00:15:13,960 --> 00:15:16,800 was that I was looking forward to this new chapter. 209 00:15:16,880 --> 00:15:20,120 I was looking forward to something being more important than music. 210 00:15:20,200 --> 00:15:21,520 Hi! 211 00:15:22,320 --> 00:15:25,960 Bella's born, the movie's released and tops the charts, 212 00:15:26,040 --> 00:15:27,600 and that leads to a world tour. 213 00:15:27,680 --> 00:15:30,560 Paradoxically, it pulls me away from the very thing 214 00:15:30,640 --> 00:15:33,680 I've been striving for and makes me even busier. 215 00:15:34,480 --> 00:15:36,920 Which is completely fucked up. 216 00:15:51,600 --> 00:15:53,120 THE DAY BEFORE THE WORLD TOUR 217 00:15:53,200 --> 00:15:56,120 No! Not that! 218 00:15:56,200 --> 00:15:59,760 Nulle, do you know that Dad's going back to work again? 219 00:16:00,320 --> 00:16:02,880 -Will you miss Daddy when he's on tour? -No. 220 00:16:02,960 --> 00:16:05,200 What? You won't miss me? 221 00:16:05,280 --> 00:16:06,760 -No. -Why not? 222 00:16:08,360 --> 00:16:11,400 -Miss Daddy. -Will you miss Daddy a little? 223 00:16:11,480 --> 00:16:14,080 I'll miss you so much. 224 00:16:14,160 --> 00:16:17,440 Why didn't this happen eight years ago? 225 00:16:17,520 --> 00:16:20,480 It would've been great if it had happened three years ago. 226 00:16:20,560 --> 00:16:24,600 It's always been part of the dream 227 00:16:24,680 --> 00:16:29,560 that you'd get to perform abroad, so that's the coolest thing. 228 00:16:29,640 --> 00:16:33,280 You've always been kind of like, "I don't really believe it'll happen." 229 00:16:33,360 --> 00:16:36,640 Come on. I just don't see that as happiness. 230 00:16:36,720 --> 00:16:40,800 I understand there's a sense of urgency. 231 00:16:40,880 --> 00:16:43,200 You have to strike while the iron is hot. 232 00:16:43,280 --> 00:16:46,040 -But it's not… -It just doesn't align with family life. 233 00:16:47,520 --> 00:16:51,360 It's so important all the time. Nothing's more important than that. 234 00:16:52,560 --> 00:16:53,560 No. 235 00:16:55,400 --> 00:16:56,760 No. But… 236 00:16:56,840 --> 00:16:58,840 You got that. Nothing's more important. 237 00:16:59,960 --> 00:17:01,840 She's so cute. 238 00:17:10,400 --> 00:17:12,160 Long before the kids and Cille, 239 00:17:12,240 --> 00:17:13,440 I had this dream, 240 00:17:13,520 --> 00:17:16,160 and now I have the chance to make it come true. 241 00:17:17,480 --> 00:17:20,280 That desire to be up there onstage, 242 00:17:21,160 --> 00:17:22,400 I've always had it. 243 00:17:23,000 --> 00:17:26,120 Are you coming to the party tonight? 244 00:17:27,400 --> 00:17:30,080 I hope you're coming 245 00:17:30,160 --> 00:17:34,160 There was no doubt that was what I wanted to do, what I had to do. 246 00:17:35,000 --> 00:17:39,480 I've always had that discipline, the hard work, the constant grind. 247 00:17:39,560 --> 00:17:42,560 There's no point just sitting around. Nothing will come of that. 248 00:17:42,640 --> 00:17:45,680 I have to go out and create something, so I just power on. 249 00:17:54,320 --> 00:17:58,040 I feel like I've wanted it more than others. 250 00:17:58,880 --> 00:18:00,840 At any cost. Whatever it takes. 251 00:18:02,160 --> 00:18:04,160 The reason I wrote all the songs 252 00:18:04,240 --> 00:18:06,720 and spent so many hours playing 253 00:18:06,800 --> 00:18:08,400 is because of this. 254 00:18:08,480 --> 00:18:10,760 I've always wanted a world tour. 255 00:18:10,840 --> 00:18:13,760 I've always wanted to say, "What's up, New York?" 256 00:18:15,440 --> 00:18:16,800 Now I have that chance. 257 00:18:19,840 --> 00:18:24,560 I just know that I'm not going to press stop now. 258 00:18:25,320 --> 00:18:28,000 I'm just going to floor it, 259 00:18:29,480 --> 00:18:30,880 and we'll see how this ends. 260 00:18:35,320 --> 00:18:36,600 One last kiss. 261 00:18:39,280 --> 00:18:43,200 When the girls grow up and are old enough to understand 262 00:18:43,280 --> 00:18:45,320 that I left to go on tour, 263 00:18:45,400 --> 00:18:48,760 I'll be able to defend myself by saying I was chasing my dream. 264 00:18:49,760 --> 00:18:52,640 Hopefully, they'll find something they're passionate about, 265 00:18:52,720 --> 00:18:56,240 something that makes them say, "I have to do this, no matter what." 266 00:19:42,560 --> 00:19:43,760 We made it. 267 00:19:49,280 --> 00:19:53,400 I'm thinking we should all get that tattoo in LA. Across the back. 268 00:19:55,040 --> 00:19:56,680 I feel so great right now. 269 00:19:57,440 --> 00:19:58,440 Wow, man. 270 00:20:00,160 --> 00:20:02,680 It hits me now. Now I understand. 271 00:20:12,840 --> 00:20:14,440 Three, two, one… 272 00:20:18,680 --> 00:20:21,400 The sun is shining red, Mom 273 00:20:21,480 --> 00:20:23,400 And the forest grows so… 274 00:20:26,000 --> 00:20:28,280 We're on the launch pad. 275 00:20:28,360 --> 00:20:29,280 Thirty seconds. 276 00:20:29,360 --> 00:20:31,400 And the forest grows so… 277 00:20:32,000 --> 00:20:35,400 Hi, sweetie. I'm working, sweetie. I'm gonna sing some songs. 278 00:20:35,480 --> 00:20:37,280 And the forest grows so… 279 00:20:37,360 --> 00:20:42,160 Fond of my bicycle It'll take me so… 280 00:20:42,240 --> 00:20:44,480 My dick is hard. 281 00:20:44,560 --> 00:20:47,880 It's fucking ten, nine, eight… 282 00:20:51,360 --> 00:20:52,720 Thanks, sweetie. Love you. 283 00:20:56,720 --> 00:20:58,720 -Love you. Bye. -Love you too. 284 00:21:02,680 --> 00:21:03,960 It's just crazy. 285 00:21:04,040 --> 00:21:08,000 So many countries, so many cities, so many different cultures. 286 00:21:13,240 --> 00:21:15,040 It's crazy when you think about it. 287 00:21:16,280 --> 00:21:17,520 This is just the beginning. 288 00:21:21,720 --> 00:21:23,160 HAMBURG 289 00:21:30,680 --> 00:21:32,880 CHINA 290 00:22:03,680 --> 00:22:06,800 I've been riding a wave at many points in my life, 291 00:22:06,880 --> 00:22:09,280 and once you've tried riding that wave, 292 00:22:10,000 --> 00:22:13,240 you kind of go on chasing the next one, you know? 293 00:22:14,240 --> 00:22:18,240 When you're riding it, you have to be aware that it can stop any minute. 294 00:22:18,320 --> 00:22:20,360 It can't last forever. 295 00:22:20,440 --> 00:22:22,600 It's intense when you're in the middle of it. 296 00:22:22,680 --> 00:22:25,440 It won't last forever, but that's what makes it special. 297 00:22:25,520 --> 00:22:29,240 When you surf, you ride the wave for 15 seconds, and it's still worth it. 298 00:22:29,320 --> 00:22:33,120 You paddle back out for 15 minutes because it's magical. 299 00:22:33,200 --> 00:22:36,800 Why is that? Because it doesn't last forever. 300 00:22:38,560 --> 00:22:42,040 That's what I'm chasing. The adrenaline rush. The wave. 301 00:22:44,480 --> 00:22:45,800 Wow, he's insane. 302 00:22:46,800 --> 00:22:48,160 That's awesome. 303 00:23:00,600 --> 00:23:01,600 There you go. 304 00:23:02,800 --> 00:23:06,240 On the good days, you know… 305 00:23:06,320 --> 00:23:09,480 If I wake up feeling energized and have slept well, 306 00:23:09,560 --> 00:23:12,160 I feel grateful for everything, and all is good. 307 00:23:12,240 --> 00:23:14,320 "Of course he should." 308 00:23:14,400 --> 00:23:17,440 Yeah, it's hard, but it's also something we've chosen. 309 00:23:17,520 --> 00:23:19,720 The girls are happy. They feel secure, 310 00:23:19,800 --> 00:23:22,720 and when they see their dad, they also feel happy. 311 00:23:22,800 --> 00:23:25,240 They're happy, and we're happy. 312 00:23:25,320 --> 00:23:27,360 The circle of positivity is never-ending. 313 00:23:28,800 --> 00:23:31,000 On other days, if I feel completely worn out, 314 00:23:31,080 --> 00:23:34,920 and one of the kids has had a bad night and is crying, 315 00:23:35,000 --> 00:23:37,240 or everything's going wrong, 316 00:23:37,320 --> 00:23:40,760 and I knock over 60 glasses before 10:00 in the morning, 317 00:23:40,840 --> 00:23:42,040 I kind of feel like, 318 00:23:43,080 --> 00:23:46,280 "Why is he away right now? Why did he agree to this?" 319 00:23:46,360 --> 00:23:48,480 "Why did we choose this life?" 320 00:23:48,560 --> 00:23:52,120 "Can't we just choose a quiet life with time for us to be together?" 321 00:23:52,920 --> 00:23:55,800 "Can't you get a job around here like everyone else?" 322 00:23:57,120 --> 00:23:59,760 There's a price to pay 323 00:23:59,840 --> 00:24:03,040 when you choose to chase your passion or dream that much. 324 00:24:03,840 --> 00:24:07,240 Those around you pay a price. And he pays a price too, but… 325 00:24:08,320 --> 00:24:09,320 Yeah. 326 00:24:11,280 --> 00:24:13,000 Hi, Bella. 327 00:24:14,880 --> 00:24:17,520 Hi, sweetie. Hi, my love. 328 00:24:18,040 --> 00:24:21,120 She's so cute. She's killing me. 329 00:24:21,760 --> 00:24:23,720 Hi, sweetie. Hi. 330 00:24:24,840 --> 00:24:27,320 Hi, sweetie. 331 00:24:30,000 --> 00:24:31,280 Hi. 332 00:24:35,280 --> 00:24:36,840 Hi. 333 00:24:37,760 --> 00:24:39,000 Hi. 334 00:24:39,080 --> 00:24:41,320 -Kisses. Yeah… -Bye-bye. 335 00:24:46,000 --> 00:24:48,320 I feel a bit like Ray Charles. 336 00:24:49,920 --> 00:24:51,560 Let's get it together. 337 00:24:51,640 --> 00:24:53,440 You have to start before it starts. 338 00:24:56,520 --> 00:24:57,920 And you come in on… 339 00:25:35,000 --> 00:25:39,360 No. That was awesome! I wanna keep on playing. It was amazing. 340 00:25:39,440 --> 00:25:41,200 -They're still out there. -They are? 341 00:25:41,280 --> 00:25:42,480 No. 342 00:25:42,560 --> 00:25:46,400 No, fuck that. Come on, guys. Let's do it on acoustic guitar. 343 00:25:54,720 --> 00:25:56,120 We have to do that. 344 00:26:43,200 --> 00:26:46,320 They're still out there yelling 20 minutes after the show ended. 345 00:26:46,920 --> 00:26:49,840 "More! We want more!" 346 00:26:50,480 --> 00:26:52,280 It's sick. 347 00:26:52,360 --> 00:26:53,520 It's crazy. 348 00:27:04,640 --> 00:27:08,360 What just happened, that moment, is the reason I do what I do. 349 00:27:09,080 --> 00:27:10,720 I want them to leave and think, 350 00:27:10,800 --> 00:27:13,800 "That was pure, honest, 351 00:27:13,880 --> 00:27:15,720 authentic passion." 352 00:27:16,600 --> 00:27:20,240 If they do that, if they leave feeling motivated and inspired, 353 00:27:20,320 --> 00:27:23,000 that's when music becomes real and magical. 354 00:27:23,080 --> 00:27:24,920 Shit. It's crazy. 355 00:27:25,000 --> 00:27:26,680 I just love playing music! 356 00:27:27,320 --> 00:27:29,240 I really love playing music, man! 357 00:27:36,280 --> 00:27:37,280 Yes! 358 00:27:37,360 --> 00:27:38,760 DADDY'S HOME 359 00:27:38,840 --> 00:27:41,840 Mom, come on! Open the door for him. 360 00:27:42,360 --> 00:27:43,880 We'll do that, sweetie. 361 00:28:01,720 --> 00:28:03,880 Okay. Let's start with today. 362 00:28:05,000 --> 00:28:07,280 Today and tomorrow, band rehearsals. 363 00:28:07,360 --> 00:28:09,640 -I have a meeting with Jannick. -Yeah, tomorrow. 364 00:28:09,720 --> 00:28:11,880 I put it down for tomorrow, but it's today. 365 00:28:12,760 --> 00:28:15,680 Then I have a fashion show, and then I pick up the kids. 366 00:28:16,320 --> 00:28:18,320 -A fashion show. -It's Fashion Week. 367 00:28:18,400 --> 00:28:21,680 You're rehearsing all day again tomorrow, 368 00:28:21,760 --> 00:28:24,040 and I have shows and presentations. 369 00:28:24,120 --> 00:28:27,200 -And a dinner in the evening? -Yeah, a dinner in the evening. 370 00:28:27,280 --> 00:28:28,920 -No way. -Honey. 371 00:28:29,000 --> 00:28:31,960 -It's one dinner. -I'm going away for six days. 372 00:28:32,040 --> 00:28:33,960 You're going to a Georg Jensen dinner. 373 00:28:34,040 --> 00:28:38,400 And I'll be away Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday. 374 00:28:38,480 --> 00:28:42,600 -Don't go to a dinner just before I leave. -I accepted the invitation ages ago. 375 00:28:42,680 --> 00:28:44,840 I don't care. 376 00:28:45,360 --> 00:28:46,200 But, honey? 377 00:28:46,280 --> 00:28:48,760 You go to the Georg Jensen thing. I'm away for a week. 378 00:28:48,840 --> 00:28:50,800 Let's pick up from when I'm back. 379 00:28:50,880 --> 00:28:52,680 You have a modeling job in Mallorca. 380 00:28:52,760 --> 00:28:54,640 Yeah, on the Sunday and Monday. 381 00:28:55,720 --> 00:28:58,560 -As if you don't already know this. -OMG. 382 00:28:58,640 --> 00:29:01,240 -I'm talking to a brick wall. -Let me get this straight. 383 00:29:01,320 --> 00:29:04,040 I'm going away for six days. You're out the night before. 384 00:29:04,120 --> 00:29:06,320 -When I return, you're away for two? -One. 385 00:29:06,920 --> 00:29:11,080 I appreciate it's way more complicated now 386 00:29:11,160 --> 00:29:14,560 if I say yes to traveling because it requires more planning. 387 00:29:14,640 --> 00:29:18,640 Unlike before, when I used to travel all the time. 388 00:29:18,720 --> 00:29:22,200 But I love being able to say yes just once in a while. 389 00:29:22,280 --> 00:29:25,920 I've said no ever since we had the girls. 390 00:29:26,000 --> 00:29:28,640 -I've turned jobs down abroad. -It's the same… 391 00:29:28,720 --> 00:29:32,200 Now I've said yes to two jobs. Check when you're leaving for Asia. 392 00:29:32,280 --> 00:29:35,120 That's why I don't want to check my calendar. It's like… 393 00:29:35,200 --> 00:29:39,240 The fact is, you can only see one day ahead. 394 00:29:39,320 --> 00:29:41,640 I know all this. It's not a surprise to me. 395 00:29:41,720 --> 00:29:43,240 It's not a surprise to me either. 396 00:29:43,320 --> 00:29:46,760 It becomes real when you realize you're only home five days a month. 397 00:29:46,840 --> 00:29:48,040 Right. 398 00:29:54,720 --> 00:29:59,360 It's a difficult situation, because she's so understanding toward me, 399 00:29:59,440 --> 00:30:02,360 and I'm allowed almost anything. She never says no. 400 00:30:03,240 --> 00:30:05,440 But when I'm home, 401 00:30:05,520 --> 00:30:08,640 I spend all my time with them, you know? 402 00:30:08,720 --> 00:30:11,600 So when I'm finally home, and she's made plans, 403 00:30:12,280 --> 00:30:16,960 I can't tell her she can't. I can only say that I'll be away for… 404 00:30:17,040 --> 00:30:18,840 We'll be apart for a week or so. 405 00:30:18,920 --> 00:30:22,800 It would've been great if we could spend that last evening together. 406 00:30:24,120 --> 00:30:25,120 Hi, Mikkel. 407 00:30:28,400 --> 00:30:29,960 -Hi. -Hi, Chris. 408 00:31:09,720 --> 00:31:12,440 You could do with some coffee as well. You're so tired. 409 00:31:12,520 --> 00:31:17,440 Your big sister woke you up. She was so excited to wake you up. 410 00:31:17,520 --> 00:31:21,000 Ready to go to kindergarten, sweetie? Let's remember your lunch box. 411 00:31:26,600 --> 00:31:31,240 My dream is to have a family and a family life, and I love it. 412 00:31:32,320 --> 00:31:36,440 At the same time, I can also feel that, because Christopher travels so much 413 00:31:36,520 --> 00:31:37,920 and is away so much, 414 00:31:38,560 --> 00:31:43,040 I have to be the rock at home, 415 00:31:43,120 --> 00:31:46,200 the base, the structure, the calm, 416 00:31:46,800 --> 00:31:48,480 and I want to be all those things. 417 00:31:49,520 --> 00:31:54,680 But that also means I have to give up more things than I'd like to, 418 00:31:54,760 --> 00:31:56,840 things that also give me a spark. 419 00:31:56,920 --> 00:31:58,120 Okay, it's… 420 00:32:00,720 --> 00:32:04,320 There’s a transition when you start singing. 421 00:32:04,400 --> 00:32:08,280 -Can you hear me? -You wanted to discuss the dinner. 422 00:32:09,840 --> 00:32:11,960 I just think it's a bit much because… 423 00:32:12,960 --> 00:32:15,200 That's also why I'm calling. 424 00:32:15,800 --> 00:32:18,840 I'm happy to drop it. I'd drop everything for you. 425 00:32:20,400 --> 00:32:25,120 But it's not just for my sake. It's not only because I want you to. 426 00:32:25,200 --> 00:32:28,000 You should want to spend that last evening with us. 427 00:32:28,080 --> 00:32:31,560 Honey, I'll be spending all my time with the girls, 428 00:32:31,640 --> 00:32:33,600 and I want to spend time with them, 429 00:32:33,680 --> 00:32:36,080 but I want to do it to spend some time with you. 430 00:32:37,000 --> 00:32:38,960 With all of you, of course. 431 00:32:39,040 --> 00:32:42,360 But if I choose not to go, I do that for you. 432 00:32:50,760 --> 00:32:53,600 NOELLE'S TO DOS BRUSH TEETH - COMB HAIR - PLAY, SING 433 00:33:04,600 --> 00:33:08,760 I have to own up to my responsibilities. We chose to have kids. 434 00:33:08,840 --> 00:33:11,000 The most important thing is their happiness. 435 00:33:12,120 --> 00:33:13,120 And… 436 00:33:14,400 --> 00:33:16,840 that's what I keep telling myself. 437 00:33:16,920 --> 00:33:19,040 The next few years are all about that. 438 00:33:19,120 --> 00:33:21,120 I'll have time 439 00:33:22,600 --> 00:33:24,720 to pursue my career later on. 440 00:33:27,600 --> 00:33:29,520 I can tell myself that. 441 00:33:29,600 --> 00:33:31,760 It's just easier said than done. 442 00:33:33,240 --> 00:33:34,640 Right now, you know? 443 00:33:39,760 --> 00:33:40,880 Say bye-bye. 444 00:33:42,600 --> 00:33:44,800 -Bye. -Bye-bye. 445 00:33:44,880 --> 00:33:46,320 -Do I get a kiss? -Bye-bye. 446 00:33:47,840 --> 00:33:49,200 Thank you, sweetie. 447 00:33:57,920 --> 00:34:02,520 It feels like the other half of my double life starts now. 448 00:35:04,960 --> 00:35:08,320 I'll be playing to an empty room. 449 00:35:13,440 --> 00:35:14,880 That really sucks. 450 00:35:16,360 --> 00:35:20,200 We played to 400, 500 people in Paris. 451 00:35:20,280 --> 00:35:21,480 It was great. 452 00:35:21,560 --> 00:35:23,960 It's not that they didn't sell enough tickets. 453 00:35:24,040 --> 00:35:27,640 The problem is they booked a venue that's way too big. 454 00:35:44,880 --> 00:35:47,240 Are you out there? There, there… 455 00:35:49,680 --> 00:35:51,840 I don't feel like this right now. 456 00:35:57,360 --> 00:36:00,480 Thing is, we have electricity issues. 457 00:36:00,560 --> 00:36:03,160 It's so bad that we have to apologize. 458 00:36:03,240 --> 00:36:04,760 It's a complete mess. 459 00:36:05,640 --> 00:36:07,240 So we're playing over the PA? 460 00:36:07,320 --> 00:36:10,600 There are side fills that work like the PA, 461 00:36:10,680 --> 00:36:13,040 but send the sound towards you. 462 00:36:13,560 --> 00:36:16,240 -Wow. -I also considered… 463 00:36:16,320 --> 00:36:17,720 It needs power, 464 00:36:17,800 --> 00:36:21,680 but you could sit in the center with some monitor boxes. 465 00:36:21,760 --> 00:36:24,920 -That sounds really good. -Great plan. 466 00:36:25,000 --> 00:36:27,040 We do something completely different. 467 00:36:27,120 --> 00:36:29,920 So set up without microphones? On the stage? 468 00:36:30,000 --> 00:36:31,080 With mikes. 469 00:36:31,160 --> 00:36:33,360 -Let's go full-on rock and roll. -Yeah. 470 00:36:49,640 --> 00:36:54,640 I have no idea if it'll work, if it'll sound good or really shit. 471 00:37:02,720 --> 00:37:04,400 This is so messed up. 472 00:37:04,480 --> 00:37:07,280 All I can do is go out there and just do my best. 473 00:38:21,160 --> 00:38:22,760 Who the fuck would've thought? 474 00:38:23,400 --> 00:38:24,640 It was magical. 475 00:38:25,640 --> 00:38:28,080 Today's been a crazy roller coaster ride. 476 00:38:29,160 --> 00:38:32,680 I'm completely exhausted right now. Like I've run a marathon. 477 00:39:18,920 --> 00:39:20,160 Hi, sweetheart. 478 00:39:20,960 --> 00:39:22,400 Hi, pumpkin. 479 00:39:24,240 --> 00:39:25,920 Are you at the library, darling? 480 00:39:27,800 --> 00:39:28,800 Are you having fun? 481 00:39:31,040 --> 00:39:33,120 -Can you say "Hi"? -Hi. 482 00:39:33,200 --> 00:39:35,320 Should we draw more rainbows? 483 00:39:35,960 --> 00:39:37,600 -One for Mom. -Thank you. 484 00:39:38,560 --> 00:39:41,160 One more. Thank you, darling. 485 00:39:48,400 --> 00:39:50,560 Cille sent some pictures of Nulle, 486 00:39:50,640 --> 00:39:54,200 where she has a ponytail and looks like a big girl, and you think, 487 00:39:54,880 --> 00:39:59,680 "In the pictures taken just a month ago, she looks like a tiny baby." 488 00:39:59,760 --> 00:40:01,200 So much happens while you're away. 489 00:40:01,280 --> 00:40:03,440 Especially with someone who's six months old, 490 00:40:03,520 --> 00:40:06,000 but also with someone who's two and a half. 491 00:40:06,080 --> 00:40:11,160 You miss all the little things, and it's the little things that matter. 492 00:40:11,240 --> 00:40:15,480 They make you get to know them. You see them grow, 493 00:40:16,360 --> 00:40:17,360 and you form a bond. 494 00:40:17,440 --> 00:40:19,600 All the things I miss. 495 00:40:19,680 --> 00:40:22,440 The first year of her life has just been like, "Bye-bye." 496 00:40:26,760 --> 00:40:29,000 You don't get that back. 497 00:40:29,680 --> 00:40:31,160 You can't make up for that. 498 00:40:39,480 --> 00:40:41,960 That's not quite how I imagined life as a dad. 499 00:40:44,720 --> 00:40:47,400 "Let's have kids, but not spend any time with them." 500 00:40:48,800 --> 00:40:50,320 But I also know 501 00:40:51,600 --> 00:40:53,080 that she needs her dad. 502 00:40:53,680 --> 00:40:57,040 Cille says she wakes up during the night and says, "Where's Daddy?" 503 00:41:04,120 --> 00:41:06,120 "He's away chasing his dream." 504 00:41:37,880 --> 00:41:40,000 What's the most important thing right now? 505 00:41:41,880 --> 00:41:45,400 Is it being with my family and my daughters? 506 00:41:45,480 --> 00:41:49,400 Or is it playing all these shows because now is my chance? 507 00:41:49,480 --> 00:41:52,880 I have to go for it now, or regret it for the rest of my life. 508 00:41:53,520 --> 00:41:56,320 It's not as fun, but it's what's important. 509 00:41:56,400 --> 00:42:00,960 It's not only about how I'm feeling now and what my feelings are telling me, 510 00:42:01,040 --> 00:42:03,920 but about the last ten years, and all the legwork I've put in. 511 00:42:04,000 --> 00:42:06,720 I can't get to the ramp 512 00:42:06,800 --> 00:42:09,280 and then be like, "I'm taking an exit." 513 00:42:14,880 --> 00:42:16,760 Perhaps the most important thing 514 00:42:18,680 --> 00:42:21,840 is to acknowledge that it's hard juggling two kids and a career, 515 00:42:21,920 --> 00:42:23,640 and just suck it up, brother. 516 00:42:23,720 --> 00:42:27,920 You made these decisions yourself. You decided to get out there. 517 00:42:28,000 --> 00:42:29,920 You decided that you wanted two kids. 518 00:42:49,600 --> 00:42:53,360 "Fool's Gold" kind of symbolizes my success. 519 00:43:13,880 --> 00:43:18,200 All the superficial things I've been chasing for so many years, 520 00:43:18,280 --> 00:43:21,240 is it real gold I'm chasing, 521 00:43:21,320 --> 00:43:24,240 or is it fool's gold? 522 00:43:24,320 --> 00:43:27,200 That's the eternal question. Is it worth it? 523 00:43:27,280 --> 00:43:29,320 Is there real gold at the end of the rainbow? 524 00:43:29,400 --> 00:43:31,920 Or will I get to the end of the rainbow and think, 525 00:43:32,000 --> 00:43:35,040 "Why the hell did I do that? I've got gold at home, right?" 526 00:43:54,000 --> 00:43:56,440 Sweetheart, not that knife. Let's wash the knife. 527 00:43:56,520 --> 00:43:58,480 -Hi. -Hi, honey. 528 00:43:59,480 --> 00:44:03,080 Can you tell Daddy who came to visit you in kindergarten today? 529 00:44:03,920 --> 00:44:06,400 -The Easter Bunny. -The Easter Bunny? 530 00:44:07,560 --> 00:44:11,360 Really? Can you tell me a cool story about the Easter Bunny, Noelle? 531 00:44:11,440 --> 00:44:13,680 I'd rather Dad told us what the plan is. 532 00:44:13,760 --> 00:44:17,000 Emil tells me you're not coming home on Sunday. 533 00:44:17,080 --> 00:44:20,440 You're coming on Tuesday instead, and you haven't said anything. 534 00:44:20,520 --> 00:44:23,680 I really hope you'll be home for a few days after Nashville, 535 00:44:23,760 --> 00:44:25,560 so you get some time to adjust. 536 00:44:26,360 --> 00:44:28,000 But I haven't heard more about it. 537 00:44:28,800 --> 00:44:31,600 I'm not sure what's happening next, because… 538 00:44:31,680 --> 00:44:34,880 Honey, you can't land on Sunday, 539 00:44:34,960 --> 00:44:38,760 then get up on Monday with jet lag and face a load of people in Sweden. 540 00:44:38,840 --> 00:44:40,920 Why not postpone it two days 541 00:44:41,000 --> 00:44:44,360 so you can adjust to the time difference and catch your breath? 542 00:44:45,000 --> 00:44:48,520 Because there's no other option. 543 00:44:49,360 --> 00:44:52,000 I'm fed up with you not being home right now, okay? 544 00:44:52,080 --> 00:44:53,880 -I just want you to come home. -Yeah. 545 00:44:54,560 --> 00:44:56,120 Let me put it this way. 546 00:44:57,120 --> 00:44:58,280 I'm not… 547 00:45:00,600 --> 00:45:03,720 I'm not too happy that you're going to be away for even longer. 548 00:45:49,200 --> 00:45:52,280 I kind of feel like the Cecilie I've always been, 549 00:45:52,360 --> 00:45:55,760 the Cecilie before having kids, the person I've been most of my life, 550 00:45:55,840 --> 00:45:57,320 is being phased out. 551 00:45:57,400 --> 00:46:01,160 So many things that I feel are part of my identity 552 00:46:01,240 --> 00:46:02,960 are tied to my work. 553 00:46:03,040 --> 00:46:05,280 I've written a book called Instagrim. 554 00:46:05,360 --> 00:46:08,040 It's about mental health and social media. 555 00:46:08,120 --> 00:46:12,200 I hope I can help convey something to you that you didn't know 556 00:46:12,280 --> 00:46:14,240 and draw attention to a topic 557 00:46:14,320 --> 00:46:16,800 that I think we need to talk about a lot more. 558 00:46:19,960 --> 00:46:24,240 This week's biggest shitstorm was directed at cillemusen. 559 00:46:24,320 --> 00:46:28,040 She published a book and has been accused of being a hypocrite. 560 00:46:28,120 --> 00:46:31,360 People ask, "Can you be the face of this agenda?" 561 00:46:31,440 --> 00:46:33,800 There's been a public backlash. 562 00:46:33,880 --> 00:46:36,480 There's been no holding back. 563 00:46:36,560 --> 00:46:39,240 It's been like a bloodbath. 564 00:46:40,920 --> 00:46:45,240 Wow. There's been so much attention around my book Instagrim 565 00:46:45,320 --> 00:46:46,880 that's being published tomorrow. 566 00:46:46,960 --> 00:46:49,840 Thank you so much for your interest, 567 00:46:49,920 --> 00:46:52,320 and thanks to everyone who's sent love. 568 00:46:53,000 --> 00:46:55,440 That said, I do hear the criticism, 569 00:46:56,200 --> 00:46:57,760 and I take it to heart. 570 00:47:03,560 --> 00:47:07,400 Tell me how you are, what's happening, what's new, 571 00:47:07,480 --> 00:47:08,680 what the plan is. 572 00:47:08,760 --> 00:47:14,880 Everybody's telling me to pull the plug and not think about it. 573 00:47:14,960 --> 00:47:17,080 Just look after myself. 574 00:47:17,160 --> 00:47:20,520 In a while, when things have calmed down, I can get back out there 575 00:47:20,600 --> 00:47:23,760 and help continue the debate in a cool way. 576 00:47:23,840 --> 00:47:27,160 Where it's not about me personally. Social media is what it is. 577 00:47:27,240 --> 00:47:29,760 -I can't change… -You can't change Instagram. 578 00:47:29,840 --> 00:47:31,080 …what social media is. 579 00:47:31,160 --> 00:47:33,920 I obviously didn't put my message across clearly. 580 00:47:34,000 --> 00:47:38,200 I have to take responsibility for that. I know I'm part of the problem. 581 00:47:38,280 --> 00:47:41,040 I do realize that it's paradoxical. 582 00:47:42,200 --> 00:47:45,160 I'm far from perfect. 583 00:47:45,840 --> 00:47:48,240 I'm as confused as everyone else. 584 00:47:48,320 --> 00:47:50,400 You know what we should do as a society? 585 00:47:50,480 --> 00:47:52,520 Create more awareness of what it is, 586 00:47:52,600 --> 00:47:56,800 and get some regulations and clear labeling around it 587 00:47:56,880 --> 00:48:01,240 in order to start a conversation and educate young people… 588 00:48:01,320 --> 00:48:04,240 Honey, listen to yourself. 589 00:48:04,320 --> 00:48:08,520 The way you're talking to me now, right? 590 00:48:08,600 --> 00:48:10,880 That's how I wanted you to talk in that video. 591 00:48:10,960 --> 00:48:13,040 -I'm not trying… -No. Honey… 592 00:48:13,120 --> 00:48:16,520 -I'm not talking about… -There's so much I'm not allowed to say. 593 00:48:16,600 --> 00:48:22,040 -I'm not talking about… -I was broken and couldn't go on anymore. 594 00:48:22,120 --> 00:48:23,720 -I'm saying… -I couldn't go on. 595 00:48:23,800 --> 00:48:26,840 I'm not being hard on you or critical just for the sake of it. 596 00:48:26,920 --> 00:48:30,800 I just feel that I know you, and I know that when you really get going 597 00:48:30,880 --> 00:48:33,200 and speak from the heart and are authentic, 598 00:48:33,280 --> 00:48:34,760 you reach people. 599 00:48:34,840 --> 00:48:37,840 The more opinions you mix into your speech, 600 00:48:37,920 --> 00:48:42,600 the more spin doctors and royal advisors get involved… 601 00:48:42,680 --> 00:48:46,880 I did my best because I had a lump in my throat all day. 602 00:48:46,960 --> 00:48:50,800 I couldn't do it better than that. Anyway, enough. 603 00:48:50,880 --> 00:48:54,640 I don't want to go on about it. Come home and help me work out a strategy. 604 00:48:55,280 --> 00:48:56,240 Yeah. 605 00:48:56,320 --> 00:48:57,360 Sorry? 606 00:48:57,440 --> 00:49:00,880 The big mistake was going on Deadline. Are you listening to me? 607 00:49:01,680 --> 00:49:04,200 I am. They're saying I have to help carry the gear. 608 00:49:04,280 --> 00:49:05,520 That won't happen. 609 00:49:06,320 --> 00:49:09,440 Should we go tuck you in now? Give Daddy a kiss. 610 00:49:09,520 --> 00:49:11,320 -Then we'll go tuck you in. -No. 611 00:49:11,400 --> 00:49:13,960 I deserve a little kiss, sweetheart. 612 00:49:14,040 --> 00:49:15,720 Bad connection. What was that? 613 00:49:15,800 --> 00:49:18,040 Nothing. It doesn't matter. 614 00:49:18,120 --> 00:49:20,040 Bye-bye, Nulle. Sweet dreams. 615 00:49:20,600 --> 00:49:22,800 You keep cutting out. 616 00:49:22,880 --> 00:49:24,840 I'm sorry. I'm in New York. 617 00:49:24,920 --> 00:49:26,880 Network coverage is notoriously bad. 618 00:49:27,800 --> 00:49:28,920 You're in New York? 619 00:49:30,000 --> 00:49:31,000 How great. 620 00:49:31,080 --> 00:49:32,720 -It's crazy. -Looking forward to the show? 621 00:49:33,920 --> 00:49:36,680 Yeah. I had a meeting with… 622 00:49:38,040 --> 00:49:42,160 We've had 10,000 meetings about this tour 623 00:49:42,240 --> 00:49:45,080 and the new album, and you haven't heard any of it. 624 00:49:46,160 --> 00:49:48,240 Noelle? Go upstairs and get your… 625 00:49:48,320 --> 00:49:50,360 Mom? Can you give Noelle… 626 00:49:50,440 --> 00:49:53,240 Wow! It's crazy having a conversation like this. 627 00:49:53,320 --> 00:49:56,280 -What was that? -All our conversations are like this. 628 00:49:56,360 --> 00:49:59,760 We can't have a conversation because there's shouting… 629 00:50:31,640 --> 00:50:33,560 That song comes from the heart. 630 00:50:33,640 --> 00:50:35,160 It damn well does. 631 00:50:35,920 --> 00:50:36,760 How? 632 00:50:36,840 --> 00:50:39,640 You have to be a little sad to write something like that. 633 00:50:39,720 --> 00:50:41,560 Sad about what? 634 00:50:44,920 --> 00:50:46,520 About not feeling good enough. 635 00:50:48,040 --> 00:50:51,920 About asking for forgiveness. Because you forgot to ask permission. 636 00:50:54,560 --> 00:50:57,800 Being a little too selfish, you know? Too far up your own ass. 637 00:50:59,200 --> 00:51:01,400 -Sure. -Making poor decisions. 638 00:51:01,480 --> 00:51:03,080 At important moments. 639 00:51:28,080 --> 00:51:31,040 It's hard not being in sync, you know? 640 00:51:31,120 --> 00:51:33,600 That's where we've been lately, I think. 641 00:51:34,280 --> 00:51:37,240 Because of that shitstorm, but also just in general. 642 00:51:40,200 --> 00:51:42,440 She's tried to share things with me 643 00:51:42,520 --> 00:51:44,960 that I haven't really been able to feel. 644 00:51:45,040 --> 00:51:48,240 I've been in a different place and couldn't relate to the pain 645 00:51:48,320 --> 00:51:52,280 and the trauma she's been going through. 646 00:51:52,360 --> 00:51:54,640 She hit a turning point, a crisis. 647 00:51:55,880 --> 00:51:59,120 At the same time, I've been flying high on my world tour. 648 00:51:59,200 --> 00:52:03,120 I've wanted to share all that with her, but she hasn't really engaged. 649 00:52:03,200 --> 00:52:06,280 She can't relate to it. She hasn't had the energy. 650 00:52:06,360 --> 00:52:10,560 And I haven't had the energy to listen to her. 651 00:52:11,760 --> 00:52:14,600 I've tried. I think she has as well, but… 652 00:52:15,280 --> 00:52:19,760 We've just always been on the same frequency and wavelength. 653 00:52:19,840 --> 00:52:22,400 For the first time, we've been talking past each other, 654 00:52:22,480 --> 00:52:27,120 and it's been really hard to communicate and be like… 655 00:52:30,800 --> 00:52:33,240 I've seen it in her face when she's looked at me. 656 00:52:33,920 --> 00:52:35,200 "You're completely gone." 657 00:52:36,240 --> 00:52:41,040 And I've looked at her several times like, "What the hell don't you understand?" 658 00:53:47,920 --> 00:53:49,720 Korea is extraordinary. 659 00:53:50,560 --> 00:53:53,880 Korea is where it's really taken off. 660 00:54:05,560 --> 00:54:07,040 It's so crazy. 661 00:54:07,120 --> 00:54:09,080 It's like landing on another planet. 662 00:54:13,000 --> 00:54:15,560 It's beginning to dawn on me what the hell's going on. 663 00:54:17,040 --> 00:54:20,720 Jesus, the shows are gonna be insane. It's completely mind-blowing. 664 00:54:32,240 --> 00:54:33,440 Look how big it is. 665 00:54:34,320 --> 00:54:35,840 No, no, no. 666 00:54:42,600 --> 00:54:44,000 No, no, no! 667 00:54:46,480 --> 00:54:48,400 I'm getting goose bumps. 668 00:54:53,760 --> 00:54:55,680 This is insane. 669 00:54:57,480 --> 00:55:00,400 -Is that a huge screen? -There's one on the side as well. 670 00:55:01,520 --> 00:55:02,880 -Wow! -It's massive. 671 00:55:05,600 --> 00:55:08,240 -This is insane. -What a cool place. 672 00:55:10,600 --> 00:55:13,760 This is the biggest headlining concert 673 00:55:14,600 --> 00:55:15,800 I've played. 674 00:55:17,160 --> 00:55:18,160 Ever. 675 00:55:19,880 --> 00:55:22,600 We'll top that in a month at Royal Arena, but… 676 00:55:24,680 --> 00:55:27,400 So much work goes into this 677 00:55:27,480 --> 00:55:30,520 that people don't know about and that you don't show. 678 00:55:30,600 --> 00:55:32,880 Hours upon hours 679 00:55:33,640 --> 00:55:36,200 with my clown hat on. 680 00:55:38,840 --> 00:55:40,760 Promos, commercials. 681 00:55:40,840 --> 00:55:42,840 "I'm Christopher. My new single, blah-blah." 682 00:55:48,920 --> 00:55:52,640 All that stuff is what makes it possible to stand up there and say… 683 00:56:01,720 --> 00:56:04,280 There's huge potential out here, 684 00:56:04,360 --> 00:56:07,520 but you need to be adaptable 685 00:56:07,600 --> 00:56:10,040 and willing to entertain. 686 00:56:13,520 --> 00:56:14,600 I'm an entertainer. 687 00:56:20,400 --> 00:56:23,360 The little entertainer. You want me to stand on one leg? 688 00:56:23,440 --> 00:56:24,440 I can do that. 689 00:56:26,000 --> 00:56:27,800 Want me to juggle? I can do that too. 690 00:56:27,880 --> 00:56:29,280 Cluck like a chicken? 691 00:56:30,480 --> 00:56:31,800 How loud? 692 00:56:37,240 --> 00:56:40,680 I'm just focused on the huge shows we're playing. 693 00:56:41,200 --> 00:56:42,920 It makes so much sense 694 00:56:43,000 --> 00:56:46,560 that all the stuff that seems meaningless suddenly makes sense as well. 695 00:56:50,240 --> 00:56:52,680 I was like, "Okay. That's why." 696 00:56:52,760 --> 00:56:56,120 I was in a street food kitchen playing "Bad." 697 00:56:56,200 --> 00:57:00,440 The promo you did with Young Ji led to you singing a song with her. 698 00:57:44,200 --> 00:57:46,520 There's no such thing as just a little bit here. 699 00:57:46,600 --> 00:57:48,840 "Just a little bit of makeup." Pierrot! 700 00:57:49,440 --> 00:57:51,080 I love the clown shoes. 701 00:57:51,160 --> 00:57:53,960 "I'm gonna do a big, big show." 702 00:58:09,680 --> 00:58:10,680 Are you okay? 703 00:58:19,640 --> 00:58:22,400 How nice. Look who's calling. 704 00:58:22,480 --> 00:58:24,080 Hi, Nulle. 705 00:58:25,240 --> 00:58:27,560 What's up, sweetie? What's going on? 706 00:58:27,640 --> 00:58:30,160 We've been trying to go home for about an hour now. 707 00:58:32,840 --> 00:58:34,440 I miss you, sweetie. 708 00:58:34,960 --> 00:58:36,640 See what I'm about to eat? 709 00:58:37,160 --> 00:58:39,040 -A burger. -Yes, it's a burger. 710 00:58:39,120 --> 00:58:41,240 Isn't it really late where you are? 711 00:58:42,200 --> 00:58:43,640 Yeah. It's midnight. 712 00:58:44,680 --> 00:58:49,480 It's crazy. I just had four servings of yelling and crying in my face, 713 00:58:49,560 --> 00:58:52,840 and although I know it's because she's tired 714 00:58:53,520 --> 00:58:55,960 and might have got a little bruise, 715 00:58:56,040 --> 00:58:59,120 it's just like, "Right, take a deep breath." 716 00:59:01,160 --> 00:59:03,160 I look forward to you seeing… 717 00:59:03,240 --> 00:59:05,440 To you seeing what I've done today. 718 00:59:05,520 --> 00:59:08,760 Then you'll understand why it feels like I've been shouted at all day. 719 00:59:09,800 --> 00:59:11,920 -You feel that way as well? -Yeah. 720 00:59:13,120 --> 00:59:16,240 -Seriously? -It's hard in a different way. 721 00:59:16,320 --> 00:59:20,000 I'm on all the time and have to perform, 722 00:59:20,080 --> 00:59:23,440 and there are always new people I need to meet and relate to. 723 00:59:23,520 --> 00:59:26,160 Everything's scripted, and I have to remember it all. 724 00:59:26,680 --> 00:59:29,120 I'm in a penthouse apartment in Seoul, 725 00:59:29,200 --> 00:59:32,880 drinking champagne, and eating burgers and spaghetti Bolognese at midnight. 726 00:59:33,480 --> 00:59:35,040 -Because I… -Drinking champagne? 727 00:59:35,640 --> 00:59:37,080 Sure, why not? 728 00:59:37,160 --> 00:59:38,160 Cheers. 729 00:59:40,400 --> 00:59:43,320 Cheers, honey. I'll have a sip of milk or something. 730 00:59:45,040 --> 00:59:47,960 It really sucks that we're not in Portugal right now. 731 00:59:48,560 --> 00:59:52,080 That's why I'm glad to hear that what you're doing is worth it. 732 00:59:54,720 --> 00:59:56,480 -Sure. Let's see. -That means a lot. 733 01:00:13,640 --> 01:00:15,600 What the hell happens after that? 734 01:00:17,560 --> 01:00:19,440 It's a snapshot of how I'm feeling. 735 01:00:19,520 --> 01:00:22,520 It's a snapshot of what it feels like to be me right now. 736 01:00:23,240 --> 01:00:27,840 You're just racing ahead at a million miles an hour, 737 01:00:27,920 --> 01:00:31,680 knowing full well that you're on a collision course, right? 738 01:00:31,760 --> 01:00:33,440 At some point, you're gonna crash. 739 01:00:35,800 --> 01:00:39,760 But I'm in orbit around Cille, right? 740 01:00:57,800 --> 01:01:02,480 If I'd returned from a tour and didn't have the foundation I have now, 741 01:01:03,360 --> 01:01:06,560 I imagine my life would be filled with alcohol, drugs, 742 01:01:06,640 --> 01:01:10,080 women, confusion, delusions of grandeur, and low self-esteem, 743 01:01:10,160 --> 01:01:13,880 because without that anchor, you'll spin out of control. 744 01:01:26,920 --> 01:01:31,920 You see the same story repeating itself time and again, right? 745 01:01:32,000 --> 01:01:33,720 Unhappy millionaires, 746 01:01:33,800 --> 01:01:37,040 and unhappy, super famous, super successful, 747 01:01:37,120 --> 01:01:39,240 massively talented musicians 748 01:01:39,320 --> 01:01:41,040 who just get lost in it. 749 01:01:41,120 --> 01:01:45,000 That's why it's important to have that one person where you're like, 750 01:01:45,640 --> 01:01:48,160 "You're my life witness. You're my person." 751 01:01:48,240 --> 01:01:53,000 "You've got my back, and you can somehow understand how I'm feeling 752 01:01:53,080 --> 01:01:57,480 because you've been there from the start and seen all the highs and lows." 753 01:02:00,800 --> 01:02:04,800 So much has happened. It feels like five years packed into one. 754 01:02:06,520 --> 01:02:09,320 It's out of control. When the movie was released 755 01:02:09,400 --> 01:02:12,880 and the album came out, and we went on a world tour 756 01:02:12,960 --> 01:02:15,840 while renovating a house, and Cille went through a shitstorm, 757 01:02:15,920 --> 01:02:18,160 all the while having two kids, that's a bit… 758 01:02:19,800 --> 01:02:21,440 It's been intense. 759 01:02:22,560 --> 01:02:25,280 It's been really intense, so there's nothing… 760 01:02:27,000 --> 01:02:32,040 There's nothing strange about us feeling under pressure, 761 01:02:32,720 --> 01:02:35,280 like we've been living separate lives. 762 01:02:35,360 --> 01:02:38,360 We haven't had a life together. We really haven't. 763 01:02:38,440 --> 01:02:40,880 It's time to do things together. 764 01:02:40,960 --> 01:02:45,440 Cille's coming over for a couple of days to see what's happening in Korea, 765 01:02:45,520 --> 01:02:48,240 because she hasn't been here before. She arrives tomorrow. 766 01:02:48,320 --> 01:02:51,520 It's crazy performing in front of 12,000 people. 767 01:02:52,360 --> 01:02:53,560 Anywhere. 768 01:02:53,640 --> 01:02:55,000 She has to see that. 769 01:02:55,640 --> 01:02:56,840 She has to see that. 770 01:02:57,440 --> 01:02:59,800 It's a huge achievement. 771 01:02:59,880 --> 01:03:02,720 It's about everything we've sacrificed together. 772 01:03:02,800 --> 01:03:06,000 She's sacrificed just as much as I have for this to happen, 773 01:03:06,080 --> 01:03:08,720 so it's only fair she gets to be part of it 774 01:03:08,800 --> 01:03:11,480 and sees how much it's paying off, right? 775 01:03:25,200 --> 01:03:26,360 There you are! 776 01:04:43,520 --> 01:04:45,520 -Jesus Christ. -That was insane. 777 01:04:45,600 --> 01:04:47,360 -It was crazy. -Crazy. 778 01:04:48,120 --> 01:04:51,440 It was crazy how loud you sang at the end. 779 01:05:47,080 --> 01:05:48,400 Did you draw that? 780 01:05:51,440 --> 01:05:53,120 -Can you say "Hi"? -Hi. 781 01:05:55,600 --> 01:05:57,440 It's hard right now. 782 01:05:59,760 --> 01:06:01,880 I've missed the girls so much today. 783 01:06:02,960 --> 01:06:05,200 When somebody goes home, you're a bit like, 784 01:06:05,280 --> 01:06:07,160 "I'd like to go home as well." 785 01:06:08,920 --> 01:06:11,480 It's been a long week. It's taken a lot of energy. 786 01:06:14,320 --> 01:06:16,240 I can feel it now. I'm tired. 787 01:06:19,480 --> 01:06:22,280 I wake up, and my body says, "Lie down." 788 01:06:31,280 --> 01:06:35,720 It's gonna be awesome tonight. 500 people in here. It's gonna be great. 789 01:06:35,800 --> 01:06:37,840 We have a set list. 790 01:06:41,160 --> 01:06:43,840 -I feel like absolute shit. -Really? 791 01:06:43,920 --> 01:06:45,560 Yeah. Totally shit. 792 01:06:45,640 --> 01:06:48,760 When I woke up this morning feeling like this with this throat, 793 01:06:48,840 --> 01:06:50,920 I just thought, "Here we go again." 794 01:06:51,000 --> 01:06:54,320 It'll work out. It always does. 795 01:06:54,400 --> 01:06:56,720 When it's to do with your health, 796 01:06:56,800 --> 01:06:59,440 the most important thing is that you're feeling good. 797 01:06:59,520 --> 01:07:02,320 You're the most important cog in this wheel. 798 01:07:02,400 --> 01:07:04,400 If you break, nothing else works. 799 01:07:04,480 --> 01:07:05,880 I blame myself. 800 01:07:05,960 --> 01:07:08,160 I keep giving in to the pressure 801 01:07:08,240 --> 01:07:11,480 and agreeing to things that I know won't turn out great, 802 01:07:11,560 --> 01:07:15,440 but everything is important, and I'd like to do everything. 803 01:07:15,520 --> 01:07:18,440 When we get home, we get two days before we're off again, 804 01:07:18,520 --> 01:07:23,440 and then we keep going from September 3rd to November 15th. 805 01:07:23,520 --> 01:07:25,360 We're doing promo things. 806 01:07:25,440 --> 01:07:26,920 There's no time for rest. 807 01:07:27,840 --> 01:07:30,120 There's no time to adapt. 808 01:07:30,200 --> 01:07:32,400 -It's 13 shows, right? -Yeah. 809 01:07:33,520 --> 01:07:36,120 It's overwhelming looking that far ahead, isn't it? 810 01:07:36,200 --> 01:07:38,640 -But we kind of have to. -Yeah, we do. 811 01:07:39,600 --> 01:07:41,600 It's such a bummer having to cancel. 812 01:07:42,600 --> 01:07:44,000 It's not fun 813 01:07:45,360 --> 01:07:46,520 in any way. 814 01:07:52,720 --> 01:07:55,880 We can take out a song to save your voice. 815 01:07:55,960 --> 01:07:59,240 In terms of dynamics, I'd suggest "I Hope This Song." 816 01:07:59,320 --> 01:08:02,000 Okay. Let's do that. Remove "Hope This Song." 817 01:08:29,280 --> 01:08:32,560 It's the coolest job in the world, 818 01:08:32,640 --> 01:08:35,320 and the best feeling to be on that stage. 819 01:08:35,400 --> 01:08:37,000 When you have the energy. 820 01:08:39,440 --> 01:08:40,440 It is. 821 01:08:41,080 --> 01:08:45,680 But, wow, it sucks when it's too hard and just… 822 01:08:46,760 --> 01:08:49,000 It really sucks when you're not up for it. 823 01:08:49,080 --> 01:08:53,280 Then you drive past apartment block 101, 102, and 103, and think, 824 01:08:54,080 --> 01:08:57,840 "So many people would give their right arm to be sitting tired on a tour bus." 825 01:09:06,120 --> 01:09:09,400 I don't know how you pulled that off, but… 826 01:09:09,480 --> 01:09:12,120 -It hurt so much, man! -Did it? 827 01:09:12,200 --> 01:09:14,320 -It really sucked. -It didn't show. 828 01:09:15,480 --> 01:09:18,000 -Amazing effort. -Yeah. Really. 829 01:09:19,640 --> 01:09:22,080 -It didn't sound like… -You were doing way better. 830 01:09:22,160 --> 01:09:24,800 It wasn't that bad, but it's annoying being here again, 831 01:09:24,880 --> 01:09:27,560 and it's my own fault. It's so annoying! 832 01:09:29,040 --> 01:09:33,080 I have to feel like this until we're done in Beijing, or I decide to cancel. 833 01:09:33,160 --> 01:09:35,160 I can't handle feeling like this. 834 01:09:43,520 --> 01:09:46,680 If I push through another show like this in Beijing, 835 01:09:46,760 --> 01:09:51,480 the price I pay on the other side might be too high, right? 836 01:09:53,480 --> 01:09:56,720 I can't deal with canceling. 837 01:09:57,480 --> 01:10:00,160 I feel I'm in this alone 838 01:10:00,240 --> 01:10:02,800 because I'm the only one who knows how I'm feeling. 839 01:10:31,160 --> 01:10:32,560 There's no show tomorrow. 840 01:10:32,640 --> 01:10:35,160 -That's for sure. -What did they say? 841 01:10:35,240 --> 01:10:37,920 He looked down my throat and said I have tonsillitis. 842 01:10:38,880 --> 01:10:41,880 Then I took a COVID test, and it came back positive. 843 01:10:43,280 --> 01:10:44,400 Shit. 844 01:10:44,480 --> 01:10:46,840 Now I have some yummy Chinese medicine. 845 01:10:46,920 --> 01:10:49,400 Someone needs to pull the plug. Completely. 846 01:10:50,040 --> 01:10:53,840 You have tonsillitis and COVID, 847 01:10:53,920 --> 01:10:57,240 and the first show's in three weeks. The biggest shows ever. 848 01:10:57,320 --> 01:10:58,600 ROYAL ARENA CONCERT 3 WEEKS 849 01:10:58,680 --> 01:11:02,440 Someone has to look after you for the next two weeks. 850 01:11:07,200 --> 01:11:08,760 Don't let it break you. 851 01:11:08,840 --> 01:11:10,200 You're right, 852 01:11:10,280 --> 01:11:13,840 but I'm kind of alone in having to say no to all those things. 853 01:11:14,480 --> 01:11:16,240 It's me who has to say no, 854 01:11:16,320 --> 01:11:18,720 and everyone keeps saying how important it all is, 855 01:11:18,800 --> 01:11:24,320 waving money and carrots and millions of views in front of me. 856 01:11:24,400 --> 01:11:25,800 It's hard to turn down. 857 01:11:25,880 --> 01:11:29,480 Someone has to start looking after you. 858 01:11:33,040 --> 01:11:34,680 It's crazy you've got COVID. 859 01:11:35,600 --> 01:11:36,880 -Yeah. -That sucks. 860 01:11:36,960 --> 01:11:40,480 I can't recall struggling as much as I did on that stage yesterday. 861 01:11:41,200 --> 01:11:42,240 Oh, honey. 862 01:11:42,320 --> 01:11:45,600 I was under so much pressure. 863 01:11:45,680 --> 01:11:46,840 There's nothing worse. 864 01:11:47,440 --> 01:11:51,000 I'm looking at Lollapalooza, 865 01:11:51,080 --> 01:11:54,440 Djursland Bank Arena, and Royal Arena. 866 01:11:54,520 --> 01:11:58,360 Those are the five most important gigs within the next three weeks. 867 01:11:59,400 --> 01:12:03,640 I just feel like canceling everything else. 868 01:12:14,320 --> 01:12:17,840 Just the thought of going home now is making me feel a little better. 869 01:12:22,920 --> 01:12:24,760 Actually, I can't really 870 01:12:26,040 --> 01:12:28,720 face being away for three weeks again. In three weeks. 871 01:12:29,480 --> 01:12:31,400 I'll barely make it back home 872 01:12:31,480 --> 01:12:33,920 before I have to start preparing to leave again. 873 01:12:34,840 --> 01:12:37,040 I find that incredibly hard. 874 01:12:50,600 --> 01:12:52,200 Sweetie, look who's home. 875 01:12:52,280 --> 01:12:54,600 -Hi, Nulle! -Daddy! 876 01:12:55,520 --> 01:12:56,720 Hi, pumpkin. 877 01:12:57,480 --> 01:12:58,680 Hi, mouse! 878 01:13:00,160 --> 01:13:02,160 -Hi, sweetie. -Can he have a kiss? 879 01:13:08,440 --> 01:13:11,280 Three, two, one. Yes! 880 01:13:14,480 --> 01:13:16,720 I became a dad at the start of the year. 881 01:13:16,800 --> 01:13:18,840 And I haven't been around much. 882 01:13:20,280 --> 01:13:22,520 I've been gone much more than I've been present. 883 01:13:23,240 --> 01:13:27,320 I'm really missing out on some precious moments. 884 01:13:27,920 --> 01:13:31,680 She's coming now. Come here. Yes. 885 01:13:31,760 --> 01:13:34,560 Yes! Bella! 886 01:13:36,640 --> 01:13:37,920 Now it's my turn. 887 01:13:38,000 --> 01:13:39,800 Bella can walk! 888 01:13:40,400 --> 01:13:42,080 You can walk, sweetie! 889 01:13:43,080 --> 01:13:45,120 She hasn't walked like this before. 890 01:13:46,120 --> 01:13:47,480 Wow! 891 01:13:54,760 --> 01:13:59,120 While you've been on tour, it's been a tough few months for your wife. 892 01:13:59,200 --> 01:14:01,200 She got a lot of criticism for her book. 893 01:14:01,280 --> 01:14:03,280 How has it been for you personally, 894 01:14:03,360 --> 01:14:06,440 and for your family as a whole? 895 01:14:06,520 --> 01:14:08,840 Being apart from each other, 896 01:14:08,920 --> 01:14:12,040 and me being away as much as I have, it's just really tough. 897 01:14:12,120 --> 01:14:13,920 She's alone at home with two kids. 898 01:14:14,000 --> 01:14:17,880 I can only say it's a really important conversation. 899 01:14:17,960 --> 01:14:20,120 It's great she's started that discussion. 900 01:14:20,200 --> 01:14:24,480 I'm really proud of her, and it's something I fully support. 901 01:14:24,560 --> 01:14:25,480 It's great. 902 01:14:25,560 --> 01:14:27,760 Let's move on to the next subject. 903 01:14:28,600 --> 01:14:32,040 The most important thing for Cecilie has been to get this message out 904 01:14:32,120 --> 01:14:34,920 and start a discussion and a debate about social media. 905 01:14:35,000 --> 01:14:38,560 It's great she's started that discussion. 906 01:14:38,640 --> 01:14:42,320 I'm really proud of her, and it's something I fully support. 907 01:14:43,160 --> 01:14:44,240 It's great. 908 01:14:45,760 --> 01:14:51,040 ROYAL ARENA CONCERT 7 DAYS 909 01:14:54,880 --> 01:14:57,400 I feel we need to talk about the tour. 910 01:14:57,480 --> 01:14:58,440 Yeah. 911 01:14:58,520 --> 01:15:01,680 -It's going too damn fast, man. -Yeah, it is. 912 01:15:04,240 --> 01:15:06,400 Can't something be moved? 913 01:15:06,480 --> 01:15:09,960 No, it seems like that's practically impossible. 914 01:15:11,200 --> 01:15:13,880 And we have three shows right after Royal Arena. 915 01:15:13,960 --> 01:15:17,360 The biggest show ever, and then straight home to bed. 916 01:15:17,440 --> 01:15:20,440 Followed by the European tour, playing 16 shows in 20 days. 917 01:15:20,520 --> 01:15:22,960 -Exactly. -I just know it won't work. 918 01:15:23,040 --> 01:15:24,640 It's gonna wear me out. 919 01:15:24,720 --> 01:15:27,120 If we go ahead with the three shows, 920 01:15:27,200 --> 01:15:30,640 there are 13 left, and you've used up all your energy. 921 01:15:30,720 --> 01:15:34,120 You've been in that situation so many times before. 922 01:15:34,200 --> 01:15:36,200 -Yeah. -Why don't they learn from it? 923 01:15:38,240 --> 01:15:40,560 It would be better to play fewer shows. 924 01:15:41,480 --> 01:15:43,600 -Instead of forcing it like that. -Yeah. 925 01:15:54,400 --> 01:15:57,040 I'm bad at speaking up, at saying no. 926 01:15:57,120 --> 01:16:00,560 Bad at drawing a line. Bad at calling and saying, 927 01:16:00,640 --> 01:16:02,960 "We're not going. We're cancelling everything." 928 01:16:03,040 --> 01:16:05,680 "I know we've spent seven months preparing this tour 929 01:16:05,760 --> 01:16:08,560 and sold loads of tickets, but tell them I'm not coming." 930 01:16:08,640 --> 01:16:12,680 "It's the right thing for me. Not for everyone else, but for me." 931 01:16:15,520 --> 01:16:18,840 It's really hard, and you know you're disappointing so many people. 932 01:16:21,680 --> 01:16:24,040 -Hi, boss. Good to see you. -Hi, buddy. You too. 933 01:16:24,120 --> 01:16:26,640 I just need a break that's longer than two weeks. 934 01:16:27,320 --> 01:16:30,200 Those cute, rusty little fingers. 935 01:16:30,280 --> 01:16:31,880 These? 936 01:16:37,440 --> 01:16:41,200 This is a sort of "Listen up, guys" vibe thing 937 01:16:42,000 --> 01:16:43,960 because I've made a… 938 01:16:44,040 --> 01:16:45,080 Just a moment. 939 01:16:45,680 --> 01:16:47,200 Whenever you're ready. 940 01:16:56,520 --> 01:16:59,840 I've made the decision that the European tour, 941 01:16:59,920 --> 01:17:02,880 which kicks off two days after Royal Arena, 942 01:17:02,960 --> 01:17:06,320 will be postponed until early next year. 943 01:17:07,880 --> 01:17:10,600 It's a decision 944 01:17:11,440 --> 01:17:13,520 that on a personal level is a… 945 01:17:14,360 --> 01:17:17,520 I just need it. I just need this break. 946 01:17:17,600 --> 01:17:21,440 For the first time, I think, maybe ever, 947 01:17:21,520 --> 01:17:26,320 I've felt in every bone in my body that I need a break. 948 01:17:26,400 --> 01:17:28,880 It sucks, but that's how it's gonna be. 949 01:17:28,960 --> 01:17:31,160 -Wouldn't work for any of us. -You're right. 950 01:17:31,240 --> 01:17:36,200 I hope I can say on behalf of us all that you have our full support. 951 01:17:36,840 --> 01:17:41,760 You deserve to feel good, and be happy, and enjoy doing what you do. 952 01:17:41,840 --> 01:17:44,360 -Otherwise, there's no damn point. -Exactly. 953 01:17:46,240 --> 01:17:47,200 Great. 954 01:17:58,240 --> 01:17:59,240 Hi, honey. 955 01:17:59,800 --> 01:18:04,160 I just wanted to tell you that it went well. 956 01:18:05,560 --> 01:18:09,040 We've got six months together now. I can't wrap my head around it. 957 01:18:09,120 --> 01:18:10,760 Welcome to the new Chris. 958 01:18:13,320 --> 01:18:14,320 See you. 959 01:18:15,560 --> 01:18:16,480 Yeah. 960 01:18:17,400 --> 01:18:19,440 Yeah. Bye-bye. 961 01:18:37,000 --> 01:18:41,240 I understand why I said yes to all the things I agreed to a year ago. 962 01:18:43,560 --> 01:18:46,600 The guy who agreed to everything back then 963 01:18:46,680 --> 01:18:49,880 would get why the guy sitting here now is saying no to some stuff. 964 01:18:50,880 --> 01:18:52,640 You can't just keep going on. 965 01:18:55,640 --> 01:18:58,200 It feels like I've come full circle. 966 01:18:58,280 --> 01:19:01,840 It's the perfect ending 967 01:19:01,920 --> 01:19:04,160 to a chapter that goes like this, 968 01:19:04,240 --> 01:19:06,520 "This has to be tied up with a big, fat bow." 969 01:19:11,240 --> 01:19:13,120 Fucking hell! Here it comes. 970 01:19:13,840 --> 01:19:17,280 You can hear the energy building in there. It happens at the same time. 971 01:19:18,200 --> 01:19:19,520 Always at the same time. 972 01:19:20,800 --> 01:19:22,080 Hi, my love. 973 01:19:22,680 --> 01:19:25,960 -Are you nervous? -Yeah. It's starting now for real. 974 01:19:26,040 --> 01:19:28,880 I went out there to have a look. Shit, what a crowd! 975 01:19:29,760 --> 01:19:31,120 -It's insane. -What a crowd. 976 01:20:03,400 --> 01:20:06,360 I've been in a situation where I lost touch 977 01:20:06,440 --> 01:20:09,320 with what really matters to me. 978 01:20:10,400 --> 01:20:12,560 I was close to paying the ultimate price 979 01:20:12,640 --> 01:20:15,440 and losing Cille and the kids. 980 01:20:16,840 --> 01:20:19,360 I pushed it to the limit. 981 01:20:21,880 --> 01:20:24,280 I'm ready to do things differently. 982 01:23:45,640 --> 01:23:48,320 -I'm ready to take a break for… -Six months. 983 01:23:53,520 --> 01:23:54,600 It's crazy. 984 01:23:55,800 --> 01:23:56,920 It's so crazy. 985 01:24:15,160 --> 01:24:16,160 Hi. 986 01:24:17,320 --> 01:24:20,280 -You'll pick up the girls. -Yeah. Have a great reception. 987 01:24:20,360 --> 01:24:22,360 -Thanks. I'll say hi from you. -Please do. 988 01:24:23,480 --> 01:24:25,360 -I love you! -Same! 989 01:24:32,840 --> 01:24:36,040 It's not something I've practiced, sitting around doing nothing. 990 01:24:36,120 --> 01:24:37,240 Staring into space. 991 01:24:46,480 --> 01:24:49,600 I'm just sitting here thinking, "Shit." 992 01:24:49,680 --> 01:24:52,800 There were 16,000 people screaming in my face just now. 993 01:24:52,880 --> 01:24:57,000 Now I'm sitting here thinking, "Why's it so quiet?" 994 01:24:57,080 --> 01:24:58,680 "How weird. Hello?" 995 01:25:00,160 --> 01:25:02,400 "Doesn't anyone feel like applauding me?" 996 01:25:04,360 --> 01:25:05,920 Who am I, then? 997 01:25:06,640 --> 01:25:09,760 If I'm not that hardworking guy, if I just take it easy, 998 01:25:09,840 --> 01:25:12,000 who does that make me? 999 01:25:21,920 --> 01:25:23,440 You don't want any dinner? 1000 01:25:25,120 --> 01:25:28,360 You wanna go straight to bed? What do you want after your ice cream? 1001 01:25:30,280 --> 01:25:34,640 Sometimes you just really enjoy this. Someone else doing your makeup. 1002 01:25:38,160 --> 01:25:39,720 Get over here! 1003 01:25:40,480 --> 01:25:44,360 -Can you say "Dad"? -Dad. 1004 01:25:46,320 --> 01:25:49,280 -That's it. -I feel like I should bend my knees. 1005 01:26:06,760 --> 01:26:08,720 That's it! It's a wrap! 1006 01:26:19,120 --> 01:26:21,560 -Can you say "Mom"? -Dad! 1007 01:26:23,160 --> 01:26:26,920 -That's right, sweetie! Well done! -Can you say "Mom"? 1008 01:26:28,000 --> 01:26:32,600 Sweetie, I've smothered you with love these past 18 months, 1009 01:26:32,680 --> 01:26:33,960 so please say "Mom." 1010 01:26:35,280 --> 01:26:36,840 -Dad! -Bella? 1011 01:26:37,920 --> 01:26:40,920 -Come here. Can you say "Dad"? -Dad. 1012 01:26:41,000 --> 01:26:42,560 -Can you say "Mom"? -Dad. 1013 01:26:42,640 --> 01:26:47,040 Yes! That's right! You can have an ice cream now. 1014 01:26:47,120 --> 01:26:49,520 No! I've brushed her teeth. 1015 01:26:58,840 --> 01:27:02,440 It's been nice being around you. You haven't been distracted or absent. 1016 01:27:02,520 --> 01:27:07,280 Your thoughts have been here with us. Does that make sense? 1017 01:27:07,360 --> 01:27:11,440 Normally, when I'm physically present, I'm also actually there. 1018 01:27:13,840 --> 01:27:15,440 But maybe that's just me. 1019 01:27:16,640 --> 01:27:19,360 Yeah. The past 18 months have been different. 1020 01:27:21,040 --> 01:27:21,960 I mean… 1021 01:27:22,040 --> 01:27:25,480 I need to find the right balance so I can be at my best. 1022 01:27:25,560 --> 01:27:30,360 Where things are calm at home, and I can also focus on being creative. 1023 01:27:30,440 --> 01:27:32,520 Family comes first, 1024 01:27:32,600 --> 01:27:36,240 so that's where you need to channel your energy if you want to feel good. 1025 01:27:36,880 --> 01:27:40,160 -That's the rational way to look at it. -That makes sense. 1026 01:27:40,240 --> 01:27:42,720 -Anything else is tripping yourself up. -Sure. 1027 01:27:42,800 --> 01:27:44,880 But you don't make a great album that way. 1028 01:27:46,560 --> 01:27:51,600 Because it takes that obsession, going all in, you know… 1029 01:27:51,680 --> 01:27:55,920 To be truly exceptional at something requires all my attention. 1030 01:27:56,000 --> 01:27:57,360 But you can't go all in. 1031 01:27:57,440 --> 01:28:01,200 You have to be one thing from now on, and that's being a dad. 1032 01:28:01,840 --> 01:28:03,440 You won't ever not be a dad. 1033 01:28:04,880 --> 01:28:05,800 I know that. 1034 01:28:05,880 --> 01:28:09,120 For the next ten years, that's the most important thing for them. 1035 01:28:09,200 --> 01:28:13,000 They want you, and later on, they want loads of other things. 1036 01:28:17,000 --> 01:28:18,880 You like the tone of my voice, right? 1037 01:28:18,960 --> 01:28:22,360 I don't like the tone, but your message is crystal clear. 1038 01:28:22,440 --> 01:28:24,240 -I don't agree with any of it. -No. 1039 01:28:24,320 --> 01:28:27,880 But you don't have to tell me in such a condescending tone. 1040 01:28:27,960 --> 01:28:31,360 You're shirking your responsibility by saying, 1041 01:28:31,440 --> 01:28:34,440 "I can only do one thing 100%." What about the rest? 1042 01:28:34,520 --> 01:28:36,240 I'm not trying to be condescending. 1043 01:28:36,320 --> 01:28:39,280 I'm just trying to tell you this honestly and with love. 1044 01:28:39,360 --> 01:28:42,640 You've got much more insight into this situation than anyone else, 1045 01:28:42,720 --> 01:28:45,280 so you also need to be understanding. 1046 01:28:47,560 --> 01:28:50,480 Hi, sweetie! Hi, my love! 1047 01:28:51,320 --> 01:28:53,000 Have you noticed the sun's setting? 1048 01:29:56,920 --> 01:29:58,840 Subtitle translation by: Jakob Jensen